正文 26第二十五章
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">吃了什么？”
“退烧药,还有一片安定。”
他睁开眼,定定地看她,“只有这些？”
“还有一针肌松剂。”她支着下颚,嘴角扬起,“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该感谢<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">请家庭医生,专职护士。耳濡目染之下，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">倒是学了不少。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">第一次当小偷,心虚无比却顺利得手。只用少少一点,十来个小时后<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">就能恢复如常。”
安定或许有可能，但她绝没机会拿到肌松剂。他虽然意识有些混沌，但还有最基本的判断<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">支撑着。但很快他便意识到是自己给了她机会,昨天他们一起去的医院。他阖上眼,“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还是想走。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没打算要留<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身边。可是一次、两次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真有些怕。怕<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这一刻走了，下一刻就又被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">带到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。”她语气平静，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一起这么多年，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">未必全了解<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，可<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一定清楚<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的一举一动、心思想法，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只消看一眼便全都知道。这是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">道行不够，怨不得<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">魔高一尺。”
他的声音绵软无力：“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">早有计划。”不是他大意，而是他心存侥幸，因此自欺欺<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。
“是。”她爽快承认，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">肯答应回安省，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">已经成功了一半。”
他的嘴角无力地扬起，十足自嘲。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">生性多疑，从不轻易给予<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一分信任。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">得让<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">相信<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">再不想逃，永远也不会离开<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。除非<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">肯相信，否则<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有半点机会。”她忽地轻拍手掌，“看，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">教<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">许多的本事，大部分<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只能学个皮毛。可现<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，至少<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">装伪扮傻这方面<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">可以出师了。”
他艰难地开口，“素……”
“原本是打算等到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">生日的时候。可是这次的时机太好了，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不能白白错过。”她低语道，“格格，珞诗。她们都<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">蒙<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">鼓里，可却间接帮了<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的忙。”
“素素，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会……”他的舌根开始僵滞，说不出一句完整的话来。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是不是说，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会放<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">走？”她摇头，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还当<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是那个十八岁的傻姑娘。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">懂得‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对它好，它未必需要’这个道理，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">开解<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的时候那样顺理成章。说得那样好听，可是如果<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真的明白，推己及<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">下<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该想到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的境况。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没有一刻想要以公平的姿态对待<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没想过放<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">走，只想把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">圈<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身边到死为止，而<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">死去的时候还要冠着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的姓氏。”
他的唇色渐渐发白，眼神也变得软弱无力。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么会以为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还愿意。”她喃喃道，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不是个天真的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">哪来这样的自信。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做了那些事后，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么给自己信心、听着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的谎言说服自己：‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们可以重新来过’。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">凭什么以为所有的一切都能一笔勾销？想一切如<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">所愿：<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">原谅<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们重新来过，最后快乐幸福地<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一起。”
他像个得了绝症的病患一样无力地喘息着，声音都变了形，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">……”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是后悔还是愧疚？”她轻声问道，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">曾经那样的爱<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，愿意为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">成为一个放荡的女<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，没有脑子的傻瓜。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把自己洗得干干净净，全心全意地献到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。只要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不背叛、不欺骗，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会愿意为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做任何事情。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">二十八的生日过得无比美妙，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">十九岁的生日却是那样惨淡。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">瞒过所有耳目，屏气躲<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">办公室的套间里。那个昨晚还和耳鬂厮磨的男<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">仅和一墙之隔的地方与他的姐姐密谋着怎么篡权夺位。”她摇头，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们姐弟俩费尽心机、步步为营，苦苦煎熬这些年终能得偿所愿。”
他眼前闪过一道光亮。他的视力已经开始模糊，可还辨认得出这是他深藏于保险柜里的那支彩宝腕表。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">混乱了一夜，打算第二天找<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">问个明白。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真是不谨慎，把这个落下来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有一丝一毫的慌乱，根本不怕被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">拆穿谎言。因为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">更怕。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">那时说：去吧，告诉他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">如何向<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">献媚求欢，告诉他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">如何将自己当成一席盛宴，横陈<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。……<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爸爸那样地信任<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">却利用他的信任将<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">钉死。”
他闭了闭眼，眼角似乎有银光微闪。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">再不能依靠<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">得自力救济，学着警戒、防备甚至反击。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">喂养太久，浪费了太多时间。哪怕想要奋起直追，也还是被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">远远地甩<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">后面。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">醒悟得太晚又天资不足，一路横冲直撞。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">像个无赖的猎<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，尽情地享受<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的窘迫与莽撞。时不时参与进来，给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">几分颜色。有许多次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">天真地以为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会看<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">往日情份上给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">留些许余地。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没有手软过。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">享受这样的游戏，甚至乐<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">其中。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不曾怜悯过<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">渐渐死心。不，其实<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有完全死心。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也谈恋爱，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也曾有过追求。道森的程海吟，他的眉眼很像，很像<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">第一次见到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没办法像<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一样，把过去一笔勾销。甚至<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还心存期盼，但屡屡失望。”
眼角的泪终于滑了下来，他的呼吸变得沉重而绵长。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">很想死心，甚至想到和范卡结婚。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从他身上寻求安慰，寻求安全。他是个那么好的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，哪怕他心里清楚一切，可还是愿意守着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。”她的眼神迷离起来，“终于<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">开始嫉妒，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">嫉妒时的嘴脸有多么凶恶。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回头，却不愿意付出哪怕一点点的温柔。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么还有脸对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">说：离开他，因为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爱<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">入骨。……<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不过是想把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">彻底打倒，抽去<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">所有的斗志，像个傀儡一样被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">掌握。”
那个男<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的名字刺痛了他的神经，他猛地睁开眼。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爸爸去世前将所有一分为二，公平地分派。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不服，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也不服。董事会上<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">输得心服口服，识<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不清必须付出代价。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">愿意拿自己来买单，陪<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一夜好让沈家全身而退。”她停下来，长久长久地看着他，说：“告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，那晚<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身下颤抖的时候，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是什么样的心情？”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不甘心就此匍匐<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">地向<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">称臣。所以私下和诚合信托接触，妄图能东山再起。”她突然笑出声来，“可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">永远，永远比<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">棋高一招。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不出声、不出面，只等着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把所有一切都办妥，只差最后一步。最后一步——”
她的拳头攥紧，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">上机前看到新闻报道，说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">浙南的工厂被工方围攻软禁，生死不明。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做了什么？<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">像疯了一样，抛下对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">满怀期待与希望的亲友，扭头就走。……知道勤叔那时怎么说吗？他说：毕竟是个女<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，成不了大事。”
他动了动双唇，可喉咙里只能发出呼呼的声音。他从未如此无助，并且无能为力。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回头了。因为那时的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">清楚地知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还爱着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，哪怕<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们的过去有多少不堪。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">等<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，一身伤地等<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">想<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们纠缠这么久，彼此折磨这么久，该有个结果了。甚至，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们还有了一个孩子。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">想<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">机会，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">愿意低头退让以换取一个皆大欢喜的结果。那两个月是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们反目十年来过得最平静详和的时光，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">甚至说服自己把过往全数埋葬，再不计较。”
‘不要再说了。’他用尽了力气也无法开口，于是满面哀伤满眸乞求。
“那天，许晓安找来，她告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">很多事情。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的哥哥是怎么被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">母亲驾车撞死，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">父亲是怎么用钱买通证<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">反咬一口。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从来不知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们之竟然有这样的血债，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们要的不止是财产，还要彻底地报复易家。她说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">父亲去世太早，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们的痛楚愤恨无处发泄。她笑着告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">说：‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真以为慎行被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">围攻软禁？那个工厂他早已撇清关系，不过是配合演戏打压股价。他信心满满地告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道这消息就一定会回来。不顾一切地回来。他算那么精确，最后果真一箭双雕’。从天堂到地狱不过几秒，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">已生死数回。”她竟然笑起来，“天意安排，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">魂不守舍地下楼时滑了一跤。正好，一命抵一命。”
他痛得心脏都痉挛起来，甚至无力呼吸。
她轻按心口，“从那时里<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这里再什么也有了。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把它耗没了，挖空了。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">绝望，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">死心。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不放手，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只能逃走。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">要胁森舅舅，又把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">带回来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这次学会温柔呵护，千方百计想要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">恩爱如初。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">甚至可怜得，想要用孩子来锁住<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。……这次<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不再鬼崇逃跑，而是大大方方离开。”
他拼尽力气地想抬起手，最后却不过是动了动手指。他咬破舌尖，用疼痛换取声音：“不……求，求求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">……”
求她什么呢？
求她不要走，还是求她不要继续说下去？
她等待许久，忍耐许久，所有的准备只为了<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这刻见证他的悔痛交加。这是他教给她的，于最甜蜜幸福处将<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">打落地狱。让对手永远匍匐于脚下，再也爬不起来。
她终于是他的好学生了。
他如同一只被满是倒刺的围网捕住的猛兽，挣扎无果遍体鳞伤，于是慢慢地流干血液，眼睁睁地绝望。
他脸上泪痕交错，眼睛里尙残存着一丝清醒。他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">用最后的意志力与药物拉锯，他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">用最后一丝力气来挽留她。
求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">原谅<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。
求求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，留下来。
她突然失笑，拉起他的手覆<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">自己小腹上，语气温柔：“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">猜猜，里面是不是有些什么？”
他的眼陡然圆睁，几乎目眦欲裂。强大的精神力竟支撑着他伸出手抓住她的，可也只是这一下。她轻而易举地将他的手拂开，像是挥开一只小小的飞虫。
他牙关咬紧，咯咯作响。
她声音极轻，“上一次，它让<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不知所措。这一次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道该怎么做。”她挑<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这个时候，以这样的方式<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">他心脏最柔软处狠捅一刀。
令他鲜血淋漓，痛不欲生。
作者有话要说：所有的隐忍等待，只为这一刻。
不要怪素素心狠手辣，实在是被骗得太惨了。
双更结束，三更木办法了。
让我缓一缓情绪，明天晚上继续更新。
爱你们～
=3=
“退烧药,还有一片安定。”
他睁开眼,定定地看她,“只有这些？”
“还有一针肌松剂。”她支着下颚,嘴角扬起,“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该感谢<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">请家庭医生,专职护士。耳濡目染之下，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">倒是学了不少。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">第一次当小偷,心虚无比却顺利得手。只用少少一点,十来个小时后<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">就能恢复如常。”
安定或许有可能，但她绝没机会拿到肌松剂。他虽然意识有些混沌，但还有最基本的判断<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">支撑着。但很快他便意识到是自己给了她机会,昨天他们一起去的医院。他阖上眼,“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还是想走。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没打算要留<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身边。可是一次、两次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真有些怕。怕<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这一刻走了，下一刻就又被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">带到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。”她语气平静，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一起这么多年，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">未必全了解<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，可<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一定清楚<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的一举一动、心思想法，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只消看一眼便全都知道。这是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">道行不够，怨不得<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">魔高一尺。”
他的声音绵软无力：“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">早有计划。”不是他大意，而是他心存侥幸，因此自欺欺<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。
“是。”她爽快承认，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">肯答应回安省，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">已经成功了一半。”
他的嘴角无力地扬起，十足自嘲。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">生性多疑，从不轻易给予<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一分信任。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">得让<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">相信<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">再不想逃，永远也不会离开<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。除非<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">肯相信，否则<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有半点机会。”她忽地轻拍手掌，“看，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">教<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">许多的本事，大部分<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只能学个皮毛。可现<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，至少<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">装伪扮傻这方面<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">可以出师了。”
他艰难地开口，“素……”
“原本是打算等到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">生日的时候。可是这次的时机太好了，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不能白白错过。”她低语道，“格格，珞诗。她们都<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">蒙<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">鼓里，可却间接帮了<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的忙。”
“素素，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会……”他的舌根开始僵滞，说不出一句完整的话来。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是不是说，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会放<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">走？”她摇头，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还当<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是那个十八岁的傻姑娘。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">懂得‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对它好，它未必需要’这个道理，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">开解<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的时候那样顺理成章。说得那样好听，可是如果<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真的明白，推己及<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">下<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该想到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的境况。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没有一刻想要以公平的姿态对待<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没想过放<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">走，只想把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">圈<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身边到死为止，而<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">死去的时候还要冠着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的姓氏。”
他的唇色渐渐发白，眼神也变得软弱无力。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么会以为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还愿意。”她喃喃道，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不是个天真的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">哪来这样的自信。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做了那些事后，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么给自己信心、听着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的谎言说服自己：‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们可以重新来过’。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">凭什么以为所有的一切都能一笔勾销？想一切如<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">所愿：<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">原谅<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们重新来过，最后快乐幸福地<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一起。”
他像个得了绝症的病患一样无力地喘息着，声音都变了形，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">……”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是后悔还是愧疚？”她轻声问道，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">曾经那样的爱<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，愿意为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">成为一个放荡的女<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，没有脑子的傻瓜。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把自己洗得干干净净，全心全意地献到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。只要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不背叛、不欺骗，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会愿意为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做任何事情。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">二十八的生日过得无比美妙，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">十九岁的生日却是那样惨淡。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">瞒过所有耳目，屏气躲<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">办公室的套间里。那个昨晚还和耳鬂厮磨的男<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">仅和一墙之隔的地方与他的姐姐密谋着怎么篡权夺位。”她摇头，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们姐弟俩费尽心机、步步为营，苦苦煎熬这些年终能得偿所愿。”
他眼前闪过一道光亮。他的视力已经开始模糊，可还辨认得出这是他深藏于保险柜里的那支彩宝腕表。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">混乱了一夜，打算第二天找<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">问个明白。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真是不谨慎，把这个落下来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有一丝一毫的慌乱，根本不怕被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">拆穿谎言。因为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">更怕。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">那时说：去吧，告诉他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">如何向<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">献媚求欢，告诉他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">如何将自己当成一席盛宴，横陈<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">眼前。……<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爸爸那样地信任<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">却利用他的信任将<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">钉死。”
他闭了闭眼，眼角似乎有银光微闪。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">再不能依靠<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">得自力救济，学着警戒、防备甚至反击。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">喂养太久，浪费了太多时间。哪怕想要奋起直追，也还是被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">远远地甩<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">后面。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">醒悟得太晚又天资不足，一路横冲直撞。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">像个无赖的猎<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，尽情地享受<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的窘迫与莽撞。时不时参与进来，给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">几分颜色。有许多次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">天真地以为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">会看<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">往日情份上给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">留些许余地。可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从没有手软过。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">享受这样的游戏，甚至乐<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">其中。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不曾怜悯过<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">渐渐死心。不，其实<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没有完全死心。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也谈恋爱，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也曾有过追求。道森的程海吟，他的眉眼很像，很像<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">第一次见到<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">没办法像<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一样，把过去一笔勾销。甚至<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还心存期盼，但屡屡失望。”
眼角的泪终于滑了下来，他的呼吸变得沉重而绵长。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">很想死心，甚至想到和范卡结婚。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从他身上寻求安慰，寻求安全。他是个那么好的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，哪怕他心里清楚一切，可还是愿意守着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。”她的眼神迷离起来，“终于<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">开始嫉妒，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">嫉妒时的嘴脸有多么凶恶。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回头，却不愿意付出哪怕一点点的温柔。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">怎么还有脸对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">说：离开他，因为<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爱<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">入骨。……<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不过是想把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">彻底打倒，抽去<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">所有的斗志，像个傀儡一样被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">掌握。”
那个男<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的名字刺痛了他的神经，他猛地睁开眼。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">爸爸去世前将所有一分为二，公平地分派。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不服，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">也不服。董事会上<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">输得心服口服，识<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不清必须付出代价。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">愿意拿自己来买单，陪<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">一夜好让沈家全身而退。”她停下来，长久长久地看着他，说：“告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，那晚<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">身下颤抖的时候，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">是什么样的心情？”
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不甘心就此匍匐<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">地向<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">称臣。所以私下和诚合信托接触，妄图能东山再起。”她突然笑出声来，“可是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">永远，永远比<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">棋高一招。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不出声、不出面，只等着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把所有一切都办妥，只差最后一步。最后一步——”
她的拳头攥紧，“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">上机前看到新闻报道，说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258"><img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">浙南的工厂被工方围攻软禁，生死不明。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">做了什么？<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">像疯了一样，抛下对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">满怀期待与希望的亲友，扭头就走。……知道勤叔那时怎么说吗？他说：毕竟是个女<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，成不了大事。”
他动了动双唇，可喉咙里只能发出呼呼的声音。他从未如此无助，并且无能为力。
“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回头了。因为那时的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">清楚地知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">还爱着<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，哪怕<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们的过去有多少不堪。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真的<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">等<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，一身伤地等<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">回来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">想<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们纠缠这么久，彼此折磨这么久，该有个结果了。甚至，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们还有了一个孩子。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">想<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">应该给<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">机会，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">愿意低头退让以换取一个皆大欢喜的结果。那两个月是<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们反目十年来过得最平静详和的时光，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">甚至说服自己把过往全数埋葬，再不计较。”
‘不要再说了。’他用尽了力气也无法开口，于是满面哀伤满眸乞求。
“那天，许晓安找来，她告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">很多事情。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">的哥哥是怎么被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">母亲驾车撞死，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">父亲是怎么用钱买通证<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">反咬一口。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">从来不知道<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们之竟然有这样的血债，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们要的不止是财产，还要彻底地报复易家。她说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">父亲去世太早，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">们的痛楚愤恨无处发泄。她笑着告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">说：‘<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">真以为慎行被<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">围攻软禁？那个工厂他早已撇清关系，不过是配合演戏打压股价。他信心满满地告诉<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，说<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道这消息就一定会回来。不顾一切地回来。他算那么精确，最后果真一箭双雕’。从天堂到地狱不过几秒，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">已生死数回。”她竟然笑起来，“天意安排，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">魂不守舍地下楼时滑了一跤。正好，一命抵一命。”
他痛得心脏都痉挛起来，甚至无力呼吸。
她轻按心口，“从那时里<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这里再什么也有了。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">把它耗没了，挖空了。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">绝望，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">死心。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不放手，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">只能逃走。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">要胁森舅舅，又把<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">带回来。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这次学会温柔呵护，千方百计想要<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">对<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">恩爱如初。<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">甚至可怜得，想要用孩子来锁住<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。……这次<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不再鬼崇逃跑，而是大大方方离开。”
他拼尽力气地想抬起手，最后却不过是动了动手指。他咬破舌尖，用疼痛换取声音：“不……求，求求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">……”
求她什么呢？
求她不要走，还是求她不要继续说下去？
她等待许久，忍耐许久，所有的准备只为了<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这刻见证他的悔痛交加。这是他教给她的，于最甜蜜幸福处将<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">打落地狱。让对手永远匍匐于脚下，再也爬不起来。
她终于是他的好学生了。
他如同一只被满是倒刺的围网捕住的猛兽，挣扎无果遍体鳞伤，于是慢慢地流干血液，眼睁睁地绝望。
他脸上泪痕交错，眼睛里尙残存着一丝清醒。他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">用最后的意志力与药物拉锯，他<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">用最后一丝力气来挽留她。
求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">原谅<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">。
求求<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">，留下来。
她突然失笑，拉起他的手覆<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">自己小腹上，语气温柔：“<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">猜猜，里面是不是有些什么？”
他的眼陡然圆睁，几乎目眦欲裂。强大的精神力竟支撑着他伸出手抓住她的，可也只是这一下。她轻而易举地将他的手拂开，像是挥开一只小小的飞虫。
他牙关咬紧，咯咯作响。
她声音极轻，“上一次，它让<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">不知所措。这一次，<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">知道该怎么做。”她挑<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">这个时候，以这样的方式<img style="position:relative; top:5px;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comb9c732b02fLS0=AQAz276033258">他心脏最柔软处狠捅一刀。
令他鲜血淋漓，痛不欲生。
作者有话要说：所有的隐忍等待，只为这一刻。
不要怪素素心狠手辣，实在是被骗得太惨了。
双更结束，三更木办法了。
让我缓一缓情绪，明天晚上继续更新。
爱你们～
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