正文 37【第二步】
“媛媛……”
当双唇流泻出那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的名字时,她的心脏无法控制地紧缩起来。
心口的疼痛没有办法停止，像渴求,又像哭泣。
她静静地看着她，相隔一年的时光再次见到她，她变得更高了，身材纤细而又凹凸有致,古典的鹅蛋脸却尚带着一丝青涩，浑身上下散发出混合着稚嫩的诱惑力。
她也改变了,改变的是自己的心，没有办法再用朋友的眼光看着她了，明明还隔了一段距离，心跳却无法停止,猛烈地锤击着空白混沌的大脑,明明身体的每一个细胞都叫嚣着渴求着她的视线和体温，她却极力克制着自己不去碰触她。
她终于明白楚艾媛那句话的含义了。
原来喜欢一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的心情是这样的令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法抑制。
舔了舔干涩的唇瓣，她再次开口。
“媛媛，好久不见了。”
“嗯，好久不见。”
楚艾媛用温柔的眼神看着她，宛如广袤无垠的天空，平稳无波的广阔湖水，让她颤抖不安的心逐渐平静了下来。
她们就像两个初识的陌生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一样，不发一言地静静凝视着彼此，又像分隔两地的恋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一样，同时思念着彼此。
再次开口的是楚艾媛，她的声音很轻很轻，宛如肥皂泡一般一碰便碎。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还好吗？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很好，很好。”
袁湘琴一瞬间又有了想哭的冲动，她紧紧地握着双拳，这样就不会无法控制地想要去拥抱眼前这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了。
“那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还好吗？”
“应该算是好吧。”
楚艾媛一瞬间的表情十分的复杂，袁湘琴的心因此也五味陈杂起来，就像有一只手伸进了她的心脏，不停的抚弄着受伤的伤口。
她只得强撑着开口。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">怎么来了？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">听王丽丽说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这段时间常常行踪不明，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不是又去做危险的事了，因为放不下心来，就跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身后。”
楚艾媛看着袁湘琴微微扬起的白净脸庞，静静垂下双眸，掩去了眼眸中莫名的光芒。
袁湘琴的心因此而紧张了起来，想到楚艾媛刚才完完整整的看完了她和弟弟的会面，想着她会不会因此而误会，她不由得结结巴巴地解释着说道。
“刚才那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的弟弟，不是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想的那样，除了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有注意别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
感觉到自己无意识出口了很让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">觉得误会的话语，袁湘琴一下子红了起来，纠结的都想挖个地洞钻进去了。
但是楚艾媛像是没有察觉到袁湘琴的烦恼，只是用平平淡淡的语气说道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有想歪，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道湘琴<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也该接触男性了，老是这样害怕着以后怎么结识男性，这样是不行的。”
袁湘琴刚才还因为话语微微激荡的内心一瞬间就如坠入了冰窖一般寒冷。
她不可置信地看着楚艾媛，似乎不敢相信她会这么说。
可是楚艾媛还是继续说道，打击着袁湘琴脆弱的防线。
“湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">总有一天要结婚的，应该也要试着克服一下心理障碍。”
“等一下，媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说什么，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">推向别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说这话是真心的吗？”
袁湘琴惊异地看着楚艾媛，楚艾媛沉默了下来，似乎她也说不下去了。
半晌后，楚艾媛忽然叹了一口气，抬起头看着袁湘琴，用悲伤的眼神看着她。
“不要做危险的事啊，湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会很担心的。”
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会回来吗？”
问出这句话的同时，她的心紧缩了一下，随即咚咚地跳起来。
“不会了，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要保护好自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不可能永远<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边的。”
楚艾媛微微笑了下，带了几分无奈，那双眼睛却又那么温柔，分明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说‘一定会回到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边’。
袁湘琴深深地吸了一口气，克制住自己重新开始涌动的内心，再次问道。
“除了担心之外就没有别的了吗？”
“没有了。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">骗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
袁湘琴眼眶微红地说道，为什么明明表情那么的悲伤还要说谎？
“……嗯，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">骗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了。”
楚艾媛也红着眼眶看着袁湘琴。
两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就这样静静地对望着，那些被遗忘的时光仿佛又回来了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
袁湘琴终于往前迈出一步，然后是第二步，慢慢地朝她身边一步步走去……
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">触及到那份温暖之时，她终于紧紧地拥抱住那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，不顾着所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的眼光，就这样抱着她不放手。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">——
楚艾媛闭上眼，无法抗拒内心诱惑地挣扎着伸出双手似乎要想要回应这个拥抱，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就要触及到的瞬间终于还是垂了下去，她痛苦地再次睁开双眼，温柔而又坚决地推开了那个怀抱。
“不行的，湘湘，这样是不行的。”
她凝视着她的双眼，难以抑制的悲伤从话语中流泻而出。
“不要选择<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会失望，最后会因此而离开，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想要的幸福，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己都迷失了。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道的……”
袁湘琴哽咽地说道。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们都没有办法知道未来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们都恐惧着未来，但是至少让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边一起面对那份无力。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很高兴湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能尝试着接受<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但这份感情掺杂了太多的同情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有这个信心，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">爱上的是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己。”
楚艾媛轻轻地握住她的手，声音带着一丝绝望。
“湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能够清楚地告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情没有掺杂着一丝同情吗？”
袁湘琴静静地看着那张近<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">咫尺的脸，那双同时带着绝望还有希望的眼睛，她没有办法骗她，她骗不了她，她也不希望自己骗她。
所以她，艰难地点了点头。
然后，她感到自己的手被放开了。
“已经有很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">注意到这里了，再这样下去虽然不会引起刚才那样大的骚动，总归也是不好的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们回去吧。”
楚艾媛温和地说道，那轻缓的语气再也不见了任何情绪的痕迹。
她牵着她的手，带着她走过小街小巷，穿过一条条马路。
无论<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">流多么拥挤，她都没有放开她的手，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">被放开的时候，袁湘琴的手指微微颤抖了一下。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经大概猜到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这么做的原因了，湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这次保护自己的很好，以后也要记着远离危险知道吗？”
看着那张被长发掩盖住表情的脸庞，楚艾媛没有再说下去，转过身就要离开。
可是一个声音打断了她的脚步。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕是吧？媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法原谅自己，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不允许自己得到幸福。”
“…………”
楚艾媛沉默着不说话。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">根本就没有错，既然已经重生了，为什么不放过自己，坦率地学着接受幸福，让自己不幸福这样的赎罪方式<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不认同！”
抬起头，楚艾媛深深地吸了一口气，半晌后她才低声说道。
“……或许湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说的没错，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">赎罪也说不定。”
说话之间，她已经抬起脚往前走去。
袁湘琴着急了起来。
“媛媛！不要走！<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">停下来，听<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说话啊，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不听的话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">发誓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一定会去找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的……无论什么时候，无论是明天，还是后天……总有一天……总有一天…………”
但那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有理会自己，还是坚决地离开了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那个背影完全消失之时，袁湘琴已经泣不成声了。
总有一天，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会让媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再次敞开心扉的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">发誓。
……
……
清晨，清新的空气迎面吹拂而来。
楚艾媛打开门，微冷的晨风让她混沌的头脑清醒了一些，可是眼睛下面的青黑却掩饰不了她彻夜未眠的事实。
然后她抬起头，下一刻几乎以为自己眼前所见是幻影一般。
少女侧身站着，她的身影<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">晨光中仿佛镀上了一层光晕，身姿是如此的美丽。
似乎感觉到了视线，她轻轻转过头，一双眼睛仿佛就像浸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">水中的黑玛瑙，脉脉地看着自己。
她的心，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那一刻猛跳了起来。
少女就这样，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">晨光中一步一步慢慢走近自己，然后停留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己身前。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想了一年，一年的时间都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">思考着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不是所谓的爱情，然后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的是同情，是的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">承认有有同情，但是……”
她轻轻静静地看着自己，十分肯定地说道。
“有爱情，只是还很少。”
她伸出双手轻柔地牵起楚艾媛的双手，放<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">脸颊边温柔地摩挲。
“虽然现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情远远不及<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但是请<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">停<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地等等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一些时间慢慢追上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
“一定会有一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能毫不犹豫地牵住<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的手，一起往未来前进。”
“所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这之前，请等等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
她紧紧握住她的双手，虔诚而又诚恳地说道。
“请<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">承担那些痛苦了，请让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边，请不要再拒绝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了，只有这一件事，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">求<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
凝视着那张盈满忐忑不安的脸庞，楚艾媛心中筑起的壁垒开始溶解，她的声音很静很轻，带着一丝让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法察觉的颤抖。
“会很辛苦的。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不害怕。”
“会遇到很多困难的。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">乎。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会后悔的。”
“不试试看怎么会知道？”
少女的表情至始至终都是那么坚定，那光芒太过耀眼，让所有抗拒的理由都变得苍白。
这样甜蜜的诱惑她怎么可能拒绝？已经无法拒绝了。
即使自己已经罪孽深重，她也想要拥有一次那温暖的怀抱。
纵使这会让她再也无路可退，她也心甘情愿。
楚艾媛微笑了起来，笑容宛如晨露般晶莹剔透。
她慢慢地走上前轻轻地拥抱住少女，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她的耳边悄悄地说道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一直都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
那一句话，让少女灿烂地笑了起来。
作者有话要说：终于和好了，被大家怨念了很久╮(╯▽╰)╭
不过今天后台一直抽的不行，这是都我第三次发了QAQ
PS：下一章大约星期五^^
当双唇流泻出那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的名字时,她的心脏无法控制地紧缩起来。
心口的疼痛没有办法停止，像渴求,又像哭泣。
她静静地看着她，相隔一年的时光再次见到她，她变得更高了，身材纤细而又凹凸有致,古典的鹅蛋脸却尚带着一丝青涩，浑身上下散发出混合着稚嫩的诱惑力。
她也改变了,改变的是自己的心，没有办法再用朋友的眼光看着她了，明明还隔了一段距离，心跳却无法停止,猛烈地锤击着空白混沌的大脑,明明身体的每一个细胞都叫嚣着渴求着她的视线和体温，她却极力克制着自己不去碰触她。
她终于明白楚艾媛那句话的含义了。
原来喜欢一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的心情是这样的令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法抑制。
舔了舔干涩的唇瓣，她再次开口。
“媛媛，好久不见了。”
“嗯，好久不见。”
楚艾媛用温柔的眼神看着她，宛如广袤无垠的天空，平稳无波的广阔湖水，让她颤抖不安的心逐渐平静了下来。
她们就像两个初识的陌生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一样，不发一言地静静凝视着彼此，又像分隔两地的恋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一样，同时思念着彼此。
再次开口的是楚艾媛，她的声音很轻很轻，宛如肥皂泡一般一碰便碎。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还好吗？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很好，很好。”
袁湘琴一瞬间又有了想哭的冲动，她紧紧地握着双拳，这样就不会无法控制地想要去拥抱眼前这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了。
“那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还好吗？”
“应该算是好吧。”
楚艾媛一瞬间的表情十分的复杂，袁湘琴的心因此也五味陈杂起来，就像有一只手伸进了她的心脏，不停的抚弄着受伤的伤口。
她只得强撑着开口。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">怎么来了？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">听王丽丽说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这段时间常常行踪不明，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不是又去做危险的事了，因为放不下心来，就跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身后。”
楚艾媛看着袁湘琴微微扬起的白净脸庞，静静垂下双眸，掩去了眼眸中莫名的光芒。
袁湘琴的心因此而紧张了起来，想到楚艾媛刚才完完整整的看完了她和弟弟的会面，想着她会不会因此而误会，她不由得结结巴巴地解释着说道。
“刚才那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的弟弟，不是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想的那样，除了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有注意别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
感觉到自己无意识出口了很让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">觉得误会的话语，袁湘琴一下子红了起来，纠结的都想挖个地洞钻进去了。
但是楚艾媛像是没有察觉到袁湘琴的烦恼，只是用平平淡淡的语气说道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有想歪，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道湘琴<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也该接触男性了，老是这样害怕着以后怎么结识男性，这样是不行的。”
袁湘琴刚才还因为话语微微激荡的内心一瞬间就如坠入了冰窖一般寒冷。
她不可置信地看着楚艾媛，似乎不敢相信她会这么说。
可是楚艾媛还是继续说道，打击着袁湘琴脆弱的防线。
“湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">总有一天要结婚的，应该也要试着克服一下心理障碍。”
“等一下，媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说什么，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">推向别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说这话是真心的吗？”
袁湘琴惊异地看着楚艾媛，楚艾媛沉默了下来，似乎她也说不下去了。
半晌后，楚艾媛忽然叹了一口气，抬起头看着袁湘琴，用悲伤的眼神看着她。
“不要做危险的事啊，湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会很担心的。”
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会回来吗？”
问出这句话的同时，她的心紧缩了一下，随即咚咚地跳起来。
“不会了，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要保护好自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不可能永远<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边的。”
楚艾媛微微笑了下，带了几分无奈，那双眼睛却又那么温柔，分明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说‘一定会回到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边’。
袁湘琴深深地吸了一口气，克制住自己重新开始涌动的内心，再次问道。
“除了担心之外就没有别的了吗？”
“没有了。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">骗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
袁湘琴眼眶微红地说道，为什么明明表情那么的悲伤还要说谎？
“……嗯，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">骗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了。”
楚艾媛也红着眼眶看着袁湘琴。
两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就这样静静地对望着，那些被遗忘的时光仿佛又回来了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
袁湘琴终于往前迈出一步，然后是第二步，慢慢地朝她身边一步步走去……
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">触及到那份温暖之时，她终于紧紧地拥抱住那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，不顾着所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的眼光，就这样抱着她不放手。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也想见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">——
楚艾媛闭上眼，无法抗拒内心诱惑地挣扎着伸出双手似乎要想要回应这个拥抱，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就要触及到的瞬间终于还是垂了下去，她痛苦地再次睁开双眼，温柔而又坚决地推开了那个怀抱。
“不行的，湘湘，这样是不行的。”
她凝视着她的双眼，难以抑制的悲伤从话语中流泻而出。
“不要选择<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会失望，最后会因此而离开，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想要的幸福，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己都迷失了。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道的……”
袁湘琴哽咽地说道。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们都没有办法知道未来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们都恐惧着未来，但是至少让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边一起面对那份无力。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很高兴湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能尝试着接受<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但这份感情掺杂了太多的同情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有这个信心，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">爱上的是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己。”
楚艾媛轻轻地握住她的手，声音带着一丝绝望。
“湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能够清楚地告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情没有掺杂着一丝同情吗？”
袁湘琴静静地看着那张近<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">咫尺的脸，那双同时带着绝望还有希望的眼睛，她没有办法骗她，她骗不了她，她也不希望自己骗她。
所以她，艰难地点了点头。
然后，她感到自己的手被放开了。
“已经有很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">注意到这里了，再这样下去虽然不会引起刚才那样大的骚动，总归也是不好的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们回去吧。”
楚艾媛温和地说道，那轻缓的语气再也不见了任何情绪的痕迹。
她牵着她的手，带着她走过小街小巷，穿过一条条马路。
无论<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">流多么拥挤，她都没有放开她的手，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">被放开的时候，袁湘琴的手指微微颤抖了一下。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经大概猜到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这么做的原因了，湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这次保护自己的很好，以后也要记着远离危险知道吗？”
看着那张被长发掩盖住表情的脸庞，楚艾媛没有再说下去，转过身就要离开。
可是一个声音打断了她的脚步。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕是吧？媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法原谅自己，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不允许自己得到幸福。”
“…………”
楚艾媛沉默着不说话。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">根本就没有错，既然已经重生了，为什么不放过自己，坦率地学着接受幸福，让自己不幸福这样的赎罪方式<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不认同！”
抬起头，楚艾媛深深地吸了一口气，半晌后她才低声说道。
“……或许湘湘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说的没错，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">赎罪也说不定。”
说话之间，她已经抬起脚往前走去。
袁湘琴着急了起来。
“媛媛！不要走！<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">停下来，听<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">说话啊，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不听的话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">发誓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一定会去找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的……无论什么时候，无论是明天，还是后天……总有一天……总有一天…………”
但那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">没有理会自己，还是坚决地离开了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那个背影完全消失之时，袁湘琴已经泣不成声了。
总有一天，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会让媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再次敞开心扉的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">发誓。
……
……
清晨，清新的空气迎面吹拂而来。
楚艾媛打开门，微冷的晨风让她混沌的头脑清醒了一些，可是眼睛下面的青黑却掩饰不了她彻夜未眠的事实。
然后她抬起头，下一刻几乎以为自己眼前所见是幻影一般。
少女侧身站着，她的身影<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">晨光中仿佛镀上了一层光晕，身姿是如此的美丽。
似乎感觉到了视线，她轻轻转过头，一双眼睛仿佛就像浸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">水中的黑玛瑙，脉脉地看着自己。
她的心，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那一刻猛跳了起来。
少女就这样，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">晨光中一步一步慢慢走近自己，然后停留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己身前。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想了一年，一年的时间都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">思考着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不是所谓的爱情，然后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的是同情，是的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">承认有有同情，但是……”
她轻轻静静地看着自己，十分肯定地说道。
“有爱情，只是还很少。”
她伸出双手轻柔地牵起楚艾媛的双手，放<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">脸颊边温柔地摩挲。
“虽然现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对媛媛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情远远不及<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但是请<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">停<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地等等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一些时间慢慢追上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
“一定会有一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能毫不犹豫地牵住<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的手，一起往未来前进。”
“所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这之前，请等等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
她紧紧握住她的双手，虔诚而又诚恳地说道。
“请<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">承担那些痛苦了，请让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边，请不要再拒绝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了，只有这一件事，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">求<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
凝视着那张盈满忐忑不安的脸庞，楚艾媛心中筑起的壁垒开始溶解，她的声音很静很轻，带着一丝让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法察觉的颤抖。
“会很辛苦的。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不害怕。”
“会遇到很多困难的。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">乎。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会后悔的。”
“不试试看怎么会知道？”
少女的表情至始至终都是那么坚定，那光芒太过耀眼，让所有抗拒的理由都变得苍白。
这样甜蜜的诱惑她怎么可能拒绝？已经无法拒绝了。
即使自己已经罪孽深重，她也想要拥有一次那温暖的怀抱。
纵使这会让她再也无路可退，她也心甘情愿。
楚艾媛微笑了起来，笑容宛如晨露般晶莹剔透。
她慢慢地走上前轻轻地拥抱住少女，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她的耳边悄悄地说道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一直都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
那一句话，让少女灿烂地笑了起来。
作者有话要说：终于和好了，被大家怨念了很久╮(╯▽╰)╭
不过今天后台一直抽的不行，这是都我第三次发了QAQ
PS：下一章大约星期五^^