正文 33【第一步】
落日悬挂<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">天际之中,照耀<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一条条街道上，铺洒了一地的金色。
街上的行<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">匆匆地行走着,纷纷往家里赶去。
虽然白日的暑气已经渐渐消散，却依然热的让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法冷静，心头的焦躁无法挥之而去。
迎着绚丽的晚霞走<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那条归家的路上，少女的脸上没有一丝表情,与其他步伐匆匆的行<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不同，她自始至终都那样慢慢地走着,孤单的影子被斜阳拉的很长，带了一丝哀伤。
这张美丽的脸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">另一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的陪伴下总是笑着的，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她的身边没有了另外一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的陪伴，就好像像碎裂的镜子缺了一半,无法拼凑成完整的一片。
反正也早就是残破不堪的了……
楚艾媛无意识自嘲地笑了笑,然后她抬起头，双眼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">下一刻情不自禁地睁大了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那条铺满夕阳的道路上，她看见了站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一片红霞中正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">气喘吁吁的少女。
少女的脸上汗涔涔一片，脸被晚霞烧的通红，如浸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">水里的双眸带着一种慑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">美丽，就那样静静紧紧地看着她，似乎害怕她下一刻就这样消失。
她僵硬地看着她，似乎无法相信自己的双眼，比起不可置信更多的是胆怯。
“为什么？”
为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会出现，为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要来找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">？
好不容易……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">好不容易才下定决心离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。
“……”
袁湘琴静静地看着那张脸，那张自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">梦里梦回牵绕过几百遍的脸，那张让自己夜不能寐的脸。
就这样贪婪地看着，描绘着她的眉眼，一点一点像要刻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心中一般。
与此同时，她向前迈出了一步。
夕阳的残红散发出莹红色的光芒，将她的身形笼罩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">其中，那一刻她整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">似乎散发着一层光晕。
“呐，媛媛，告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">为什么要选择十中，为什么要放弃<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们的约定？”
她目不转睛地看着少女就那样慢慢地垂下眼帘，掩去眼底一刹那间的慌乱。
再次抬眼和自己视线相撞时，她的眼中已是一片清冷了。
“……湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">果然很固执，也是，这也是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">喜欢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的地方，矛盾而又可爱的地方。”
刚刚还柔和的语气<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">下一刻变得冷漠无比。
“但也是让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">困扰无比的地方。”
袁湘琴身体摇晃了一下，身体深处因为这句冰冷的话语而被狠狠地蛰了一下，可是她还是坚持地那样看着她，她知道自己很过分，光顾着自己的感受，忘记了楚艾媛的心情，自己只要靠近她就会让她想起过去的事情，所有错误的事情，她不应该见她的。
可是她还是想见她，想看看她，和她说说话。
这样的心情已经无法忍耐了。
“对不起，媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">只是不想和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">分开，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不想离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
袁湘琴的声音哽咽了一下，她不知道自己该说什么，只能这样说出自己自私的想法。
明明想要不去打扰这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了，明明想要改变自己，可是只要一想到她要离开这件事情，就完全无法思考了。
“……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还是小孩子呢，湘湘。”
看着那张充满内疚感的脸，楚艾媛笑了笑，却极为苦涩。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">之间终究是不同的个体，总有一天都会分开的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">之间也不例外，而且就算是重生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也没打算一辈子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边，这样的事情<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">做不到，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情是不同的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">总会有一天属于别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">却希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">完全属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
她抬起手，高扬着那白净的手掌对着夕阳，一刹那间，手掌似乎沾满了鲜血，无法擦干净的鲜血就那样顺着手臂蜿蜒而下，烙印<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">眼中成了一片红色，永生都无法擦干净的艳红，她的眼中闪过一丝绝望。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很害怕现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经没有以前的自制力了，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很贪婪，如果再<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边停留，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会做连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己都不想看见的事情…………”
“不会的，那样的事情是不可能的！”
袁湘琴出声打断她的话语，声音无比的急切。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不会离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也不会去任何<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的身边，只要是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">所希望的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会一直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边的。”
她呼吸急促地看着那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，她知道的想法太过于幼稚，说法太过于空洞，可是她想要继续留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她身边，无论做什么，只要她能留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己身边……
两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就这样静静的对视着。
许久之后，楚艾媛终于开口了。
“……湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还是不明白<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的意思。”
她抬起脚一步一步地走近袁湘琴，两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的影子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">夕阳下渐渐靠拢，然后只留下一丝的空隙。
她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">伸出手的瞬间迟疑了一下，本来打算碰触脸颊的手改道将少女耳边的乱发轻柔地抚平，耳边温柔的感觉让袁湘琴想要落泪。
“就这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不会满足的，就这样只是轻轻碰触<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是朋友才会做的。”
楚艾媛勾起一缕发丝爱怜地将唇印<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">上面，然后就那样抬起眼睛看着她，温柔又带着狂乱的眼神，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心生恐惧的占有欲。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想做的是比这更进一步的事情，抚摸，亲吻这些都不够，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">都属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
被那双执着的双眼看着，袁湘琴不禁觉得有些口干舌燥，她结结巴巴地说道。
“更进一步的事情也不是不可以……”
楚艾媛放开手掌的发丝，让它从手心滑落，声音低低的。
“湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是认真地这么说的吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道这句话的意义吗？如果真的这么选择了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就会和普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">完全不一样了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这一生都不可能结婚了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是绝对不会放开到手的东西的，到时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">该怎么跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">母亲交代？再让她受到一次打击吗？自己的女儿竟然会和女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">相爱？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……没关系………”
看着少女紧张不安却仍勉强撑着不肯放弃的神情，楚艾媛的眼神柔和了下来，放弃了心中一开始的做法。
她稍稍前倾，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">极近的距离看着那张脸，那无措的表情还有那微微颤动的如蝶翼一般的睫毛所泄露的不安都被她尽收<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">眼底。
温柔的声音从袁湘琴的耳边传了过来，对她却像是雷鸣般。
“呐，湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">吗？”
“！！”
袁湘琴颤动着嘴唇，脸红着低下头，脑中因为刚才的发言一片混乱。
吻？这是什么意思？
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">往的大街上吻她？
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">做不到的话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也可以吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
身体被一股力量箍<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地，袁湘琴的大脑一片空白，她可以感觉到那双手手心的温度，炙热而又热情，还有那浅浅的温热呼吸声，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">黑影笼罩下来的那一刻，她几乎是反射性地偏了一下头躲开了。
意识到自己做了什么的袁湘琴脸色<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一瞬间变得惨白，她不敢抬头看那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的表情，心脏咚的一声停了半刻似乎要窒息了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
她想要解释，却发现自己一个字都说不出来，嘴唇一直颤抖着。
然后她，听见了低低的笑声，压抑的笑声，令她心中揪疼。
渐渐地，那个笑声停了下来。
“湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的很善良，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">根本不需要有任何负罪感，这一切明明都跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无关，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">却认为是自己的错。”
楚艾媛放开箍住袁湘琴的双手，往后退了一步。
她的眼神带着令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心痛的哀伤看着那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，似乎早已经料到了这样的发展。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道一切的真相，一定不会放开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，一定会想要救赎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一直都很爱钻牛角尖，所以这样发展下去一定会因为内疚和同情留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边。”
和缓的夏风徐徐吹过两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，带着无法令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">平静的燥热感。
“其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想过……想过要将一切<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">最初见到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的时候都说出来，这样一定会很容易让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再也无法离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
轻柔的话语让她感到一阵晕眩，她无法置信地抬头，看见那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">悲伤的双眼。
“这样想着的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕吧？”
压抑的笑声再次响起，她却无法发声。
明明这个时候应该说些什么，她却开始害怕。
快说些什么啊，什么都好，只要能让那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不要再那样笑。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">行动之前，那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经不再笑了，声音又恢复了柔和，就像刚刚什么都没有发生过一样。
“……但这种事情是不对的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是无辜的，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">选择了什么都不说，但是为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要将一切说出来？”
“明明什么都不说才是最正确的选择，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就不会抱有希望了，放手吧……趁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还有理智的时候，不然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的可能会不择手段把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边。”
“放弃吧……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">救不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的………”
最后一句话消散<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">空中的同时，楚艾媛和她擦肩而过。
袁湘琴呆呆地站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地，无法发出声音，无法伸出手，她的身体像是被冻结了。
无法去挽留，因为是自己先背叛了她。
她闭上双眼，不去看也不去想。
仿佛这样就不会听见自己的心碎裂的声音了。
作者有话要说：其实湘琴的思维很死板，她是不折不扣的直女一枚，而且十分爱钻牛角尖，也很重视母亲，媛媛就是看破了她这一点才会故意这么做的。
估计要湘琴想清楚要花一点时间了╮(╯▽╰)╭
街上的行<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">匆匆地行走着,纷纷往家里赶去。
虽然白日的暑气已经渐渐消散，却依然热的让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无法冷静，心头的焦躁无法挥之而去。
迎着绚丽的晚霞走<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那条归家的路上，少女的脸上没有一丝表情,与其他步伐匆匆的行<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不同，她自始至终都那样慢慢地走着,孤单的影子被斜阳拉的很长，带了一丝哀伤。
这张美丽的脸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">另一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的陪伴下总是笑着的，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她的身边没有了另外一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的陪伴，就好像像碎裂的镜子缺了一半,无法拼凑成完整的一片。
反正也早就是残破不堪的了……
楚艾媛无意识自嘲地笑了笑,然后她抬起头，双眼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">下一刻情不自禁地睁大了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">那条铺满夕阳的道路上，她看见了站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一片红霞中正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">气喘吁吁的少女。
少女的脸上汗涔涔一片，脸被晚霞烧的通红，如浸<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">水里的双眸带着一种慑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">美丽，就那样静静紧紧地看着她，似乎害怕她下一刻就这样消失。
她僵硬地看着她，似乎无法相信自己的双眼，比起不可置信更多的是胆怯。
“为什么？”
为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会出现，为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要来找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">？
好不容易……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">好不容易才下定决心离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。
“……”
袁湘琴静静地看着那张脸，那张自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">梦里梦回牵绕过几百遍的脸，那张让自己夜不能寐的脸。
就这样贪婪地看着，描绘着她的眉眼，一点一点像要刻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心中一般。
与此同时，她向前迈出了一步。
夕阳的残红散发出莹红色的光芒，将她的身形笼罩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">其中，那一刻她整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">似乎散发着一层光晕。
“呐，媛媛，告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">为什么要选择十中，为什么要放弃<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">们的约定？”
她目不转睛地看着少女就那样慢慢地垂下眼帘，掩去眼底一刹那间的慌乱。
再次抬眼和自己视线相撞时，她的眼中已是一片清冷了。
“……湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">果然很固执，也是，这也是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">喜欢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的地方，矛盾而又可爱的地方。”
刚刚还柔和的语气<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">下一刻变得冷漠无比。
“但也是让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">困扰无比的地方。”
袁湘琴身体摇晃了一下，身体深处因为这句冰冷的话语而被狠狠地蛰了一下，可是她还是坚持地那样看着她，她知道自己很过分，光顾着自己的感受，忘记了楚艾媛的心情，自己只要靠近她就会让她想起过去的事情，所有错误的事情，她不应该见她的。
可是她还是想见她，想看看她，和她说说话。
这样的心情已经无法忍耐了。
“对不起，媛媛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">只是不想和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">分开，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不想离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
袁湘琴的声音哽咽了一下，她不知道自己该说什么，只能这样说出自己自私的想法。
明明想要不去打扰这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">了，明明想要改变自己，可是只要一想到她要离开这件事情，就完全无法思考了。
“……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还是小孩子呢，湘湘。”
看着那张充满内疚感的脸，楚艾媛笑了笑，却极为苦涩。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">之间终究是不同的个体，总有一天都会分开的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">之间也不例外，而且就算是重生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也没打算一辈子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边，这样的事情<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">做不到，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的感情是不同的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">总会有一天属于别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">却希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">完全属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
她抬起手，高扬着那白净的手掌对着夕阳，一刹那间，手掌似乎沾满了鲜血，无法擦干净的鲜血就那样顺着手臂蜿蜒而下，烙印<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">眼中成了一片红色，永生都无法擦干净的艳红，她的眼中闪过一丝绝望。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很害怕现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的自己，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经没有以前的自制力了，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很贪婪，如果再<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边停留，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会做连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己都不想看见的事情…………”
“不会的，那样的事情是不可能的！”
袁湘琴出声打断她的话语，声音无比的急切。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不会离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也不会去任何<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的身边，只要是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">所希望的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">会一直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边的。”
她呼吸急促地看着那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，她知道的想法太过于幼稚，说法太过于空洞，可是她想要继续留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">她身边，无论做什么，只要她能留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">自己身边……
两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就这样静静的对视着。
许久之后，楚艾媛终于开口了。
“……湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还是不明白<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的意思。”
她抬起脚一步一步地走近袁湘琴，两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的影子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">夕阳下渐渐靠拢，然后只留下一丝的空隙。
她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">伸出手的瞬间迟疑了一下，本来打算碰触脸颊的手改道将少女耳边的乱发轻柔地抚平，耳边温柔的感觉让袁湘琴想要落泪。
“就这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是不会满足的，就这样只是轻轻碰触<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是朋友才会做的。”
楚艾媛勾起一缕发丝爱怜地将唇印<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">上面，然后就那样抬起眼睛看着她，温柔又带着狂乱的眼神，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心生恐惧的占有欲。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想做的是比这更进一步的事情，抚摸，亲吻这些都不够，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">都属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
被那双执着的双眼看着，袁湘琴不禁觉得有些口干舌燥，她结结巴巴地说道。
“更进一步的事情也不是不可以……”
楚艾媛放开手掌的发丝，让它从手心滑落，声音低低的。
“湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是认真地这么说的吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道这句话的意义吗？如果真的这么选择了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就会和普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">完全不一样了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这一生都不可能结婚了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是绝对不会放开到手的东西的，到时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">该怎么跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">母亲交代？再让她受到一次打击吗？自己的女儿竟然会和女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">相爱？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……没关系………”
看着少女紧张不安却仍勉强撑着不肯放弃的神情，楚艾媛的眼神柔和了下来，放弃了心中一开始的做法。
她稍稍前倾，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">极近的距离看着那张脸，那无措的表情还有那微微颤动的如蝶翼一般的睫毛所泄露的不安都被她尽收<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">眼底。
温柔的声音从袁湘琴的耳边传了过来，对她却像是雷鸣般。
“呐，湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">能吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">吗？”
“！！”
袁湘琴颤动着嘴唇，脸红着低下头，脑中因为刚才的发言一片混乱。
吻？这是什么意思？
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">往的大街上吻她？
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">做不到的话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">也可以吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
身体被一股力量箍<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地，袁湘琴的大脑一片空白，她可以感觉到那双手手心的温度，炙热而又热情，还有那浅浅的温热呼吸声，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">黑影笼罩下来的那一刻，她几乎是反射性地偏了一下头躲开了。
意识到自己做了什么的袁湘琴脸色<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一瞬间变得惨白，她不敢抬头看那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的表情，心脏咚的一声停了半刻似乎要窒息了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">……”
她想要解释，却发现自己一个字都说不出来，嘴唇一直颤抖着。
然后她，听见了低低的笑声，压抑的笑声，令她心中揪疼。
渐渐地，那个笑声停了下来。
“湘湘，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的很善良，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">根本不需要有任何负罪感，这一切明明都跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">无关，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">却认为是自己的错。”
楚艾媛放开箍住袁湘琴的双手，往后退了一步。
她的眼神带着令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">心痛的哀伤看着那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，似乎早已经料到了这样的发展。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">知道一切的真相，一定不会放开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，一定会想要救赎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">一直都很爱钻牛角尖，所以这样发展下去一定会因为内疚和同情留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边。”
和缓的夏风徐徐吹过两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">，带着无法令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">平静的燥热感。
“其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">想过……想过要将一切<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">最初见到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的时候都说出来，这样一定会很容易让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">再也无法离开<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">。”
轻柔的话语让她感到一阵晕眩，她无法置信地抬头，看见那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">悲伤的双眼。
“这样想着的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">很令<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">害怕吧？”
压抑的笑声再次响起，她却无法发声。
明明这个时候应该说些什么，她却开始害怕。
快说些什么啊，什么都好，只要能让那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">不要再那样笑。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">行动之前，那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">已经不再笑了，声音又恢复了柔和，就像刚刚什么都没有发生过一样。
“……但这种事情是不对的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">是无辜的，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">选择了什么都不说，但是为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">要将一切说出来？”
“明明什么都不说才是最正确的选择，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">就不会抱有希望了，放手吧……趁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">还有理智的时候，不然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">真的可能会不择手段把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">身边。”
“放弃吧……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">救不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">的………”
最后一句话消散<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">空中的同时，楚艾媛和她擦肩而过。
袁湘琴呆呆地站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc43c0c211c">原地，无法发出声音，无法伸出手，她的身体像是被冻结了。
无法去挽留，因为是自己先背叛了她。
她闭上双眼，不去看也不去想。
仿佛这样就不会听见自己的心碎裂的声音了。
作者有话要说：其实湘琴的思维很死板，她是不折不扣的直女一枚，而且十分爱钻牛角尖，也很重视母亲，媛媛就是看破了她这一点才会故意这么做的。
估计要湘琴想清楚要花一点时间了╮(╯▽╰)╭