正文 44第44章
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是洛雨,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">有两个哥哥，他们都比<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看上去更加优秀。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的妈妈叫叶慧珍,所以大哥的名字就是爸爸和妈妈的姓放一块,叫洛叶，可能是觉得洛叶和落叶一样,太过忧伤,于是就改成了洛夜,大哥于是成了父母最大的期望。二哥出生的时候，妈妈正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">研究洛神赋，心想反正孩子都要姓洛，干脆就叫洛神，爸爸觉得这是女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的名字,于是两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">协商后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">洛神后面加了一个英。
而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出生的时候，爸爸妈妈早就对照顾孩子厌倦了，见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一直哭泣，便叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">小雨小雨……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不喜欢这个名字，但他们都把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的抗议当成玩笑，一笑了之。
叶慧珍是个作家，她宁愿花更多的时间<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">纸上，也不愿意花更多的时间陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，小时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">总是和大哥二哥一起睡。
虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是家里的最小，但父亲是个军<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，一直都认为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">应该和哥哥们一样，什么都自己做，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着其他小朋友被爸爸妈妈呵护的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只有靠自己。
10岁，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">上四年级，那天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">上美术课，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">画了蔚蓝的天空，洁白的云朵，阳光照<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸上，妈妈用她最温柔的手给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">遮阳。就这样，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和爸爸妈妈还有哥哥们，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">草地上玩耍，过着幸福快乐的生活。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画被老师<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">全班表扬了，太贴上了班级后面的艺术墙，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">还想再画一幅画，但是二哥来学校接<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不明白为什么还没下课，他就要带回回家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不想回家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">学校<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">有朋友，有老师，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">可以获得赞美，可以拥抱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画笔，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">还有很多很多没有做完的事情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">哭着闹着，但二哥还是把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">带走了，后来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">当<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着灵台上爸爸妈妈的照片时，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">才知道，他们死了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">几乎没有感受到他们存<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的时候，就消失<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活中。生命力最重要的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">离<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">而去并没有让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">觉得悲伤，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是是懵懵懂懂的开始长大了。
等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">回到学校，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画不知道被谁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">每个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸色都画了猪鼻子，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着那副被赞扬的作品，如今正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">活生生的讽刺<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，嘲笑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">自觉得将它撕了下来，扔<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了地上。
一个男孩捡起了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画，他天真的画纸重新摊开，用胶布钉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">艺术墙上，笑着对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">喜欢这幅画。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">重新撕下画纸，觉得对方完全就是想看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出丑，于是恶狠狠地对男孩说到：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">喜欢就送给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了，反正不许再贴上去丢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">！”
虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有了父母，日子却和往常一样，没有什么区别，直到有一天，大哥说他要去美国了。那年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">才12岁，二哥牵着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的手，紧紧的牵着，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">机场看着大哥和一个陌生的外国男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，一起走进了候机大厅。
那时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">并不知道大哥说他去美国就不会回来了，直到那一年，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">过生日，平素都能收到双份礼物的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只收到了一份。
然后到了第二年，二哥红了，也更忙了，他无暇照顾<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们时常用电话联系，见面的次数却开始减少。
小学毕业后，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">升上了一所很有名气的初中，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">迎来了自己的青春，这段时光里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">仿佛生活<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">最美丽的童话中，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的名字被打上了巨星妹妹的光环，总有一堆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">崇拜的看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，恳求<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，拜托<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">觉得自己仿佛升上了云端，是众<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">心目中的女神。
但是——
总也有一些<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">背地里说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有父母，只是仗着哥哥的荣光，是个什么都会不会的笨蛋，别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">用可怜的眼神看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只是有一次不巧被<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">听见了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">恍然明白，一些的幸福和荣光都如同脆弱的肥皂泡，只要轻轻一戳，就能破灭。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不再是懵懂无知的女孩，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">开始堕落，开始泡吧，开始和各种巴结<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">打交道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">自<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">欺骗，沉沦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的虚假中无法自拔。
直到有一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，他突然出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活里。他举着鲜花，跪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">酒吧喧哗的舞台下面，从下面仰视<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">从没恋爱过，没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">向<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">告白，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">也不知道为什么，明明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">比那些有男朋友的女生更加可爱一些，为什么从来没有向<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">告白过。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只是知道，那一刻，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">似乎不再孤单了。
后来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道，他并不是真的爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只是开了一个“天荒地老”的玩笑，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的视线却再也无法离开他了。
和别的异性朋友不同，他不虚假，不谄媚，甚至看自己的眼神都带着真实的厌恶，是的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">他朝自己泼水的那一个刻，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">就知道了，知道了他真的真的是不爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">毁容了，二哥非常生气，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和他吵了好几次，让他不要干涉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道二哥对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">非常好，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只要一想起僮森<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">私底下总是问<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">二哥现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">做什么？会不会拍戏很忙没有吃早饭？”“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的眉眼和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">二哥长得真像……”，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">就抑制不住心里的孤单，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不想伤害二哥，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只是……只是不知所措的想要和他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一起。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们的关系，没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">肯退步，直到二哥说，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">同意整容，便答应和僮森相处，那时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸要是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不处理，可能就会留下疤痕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">赌，所以……幸好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">赢了。然后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去了美国，还把和二哥很像的部分都整形了，然后用最快的速度赶了回来。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">悄悄联系了以前认识的“朋友”，很快僮森的消息就传到了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的耳边，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有对二哥提起只言片语，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去喜欢，太傻了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">想再赌一次，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">想让僮森看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，发现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">……但这一次，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">输了一切。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">暗无天日的仓库里，他夺走了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的钥匙，逼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">打电话约二哥出来到他指定的地方，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">给他过愿意付出一切的陈诺，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">都照做了。
然后，他不见了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">很傻。
傻到偏偏喜欢上了一个一点都不喜欢自己的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。
傻到偏偏相信对方终有一点会喜欢上自己。
傻到相信他所有的谎话，傻到明知道没有结果，却仍旧不停的伤害爱自己的亲<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。
当洛雨醒来的时候，入目是白色的病房，洛神英静静的站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">床边，终于松了一口气，笑了笑：“洛雨……没事了……”
洁白的墙壁，洁白的床单，一切似乎都回到了过去，干净如白纸的过去。
看着妹妹又重新闭上眼睛，知道对方依旧虚弱，需要更多休息，洛神英便静静关上了病房的门，正巧看到刚倒茶回来的宋毅杰。
宋毅杰把倒好的茶递给洛神英，问道：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出来了？洛雨怎么样了？”
“刚醒了一会，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">又睡了。”
“真的？”那真是太好了，大神应该放心了吧，不然又一直守<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">医院里，身体哪吃的消。“那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">先回去休息一下吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">来看洛雨。”
“也好。”洛神英的确觉得身体好累，把洛雨的事情暂且一放，猛然就想起三天前那混乱的一晚，谁也无法证明这一晚到底改变了什么，虽然洛神英总是想要说服自己对方只是相帮自己舒缓□而已，而男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">……就是要用那个地方……的吧。想完又觉得几十年来的风光了然无存，被看上去像大男孩模样的男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">压<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">床上……
心里太多需要思考的问题，让洛神英格外烦躁，还有对方之前对自己的告白，明明已经躲开了，但只要和那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">牵扯到关系的事情，总是意外的麻烦。
虽然依旧是衣服面无表情的样子，洛神英心底的烦忧却装满了每一处，正要踏步离开时，突然想到：“今天星期几了？”
“星期五了。”
皱起好看的眉毛，洛神英道：“星期一<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">把小宋送到幼儿园去了，等会下午<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去把他接回来。”
“啊……哦……好的。”怪不得这几天都没见着那个小屁孩。
最后看了一眼宋毅杰，洛神英终于走出了医院大门，停<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">医院门口的洛博迎了上来，帮他打开了车门。
回公司的路上，洛博问道：“小雨今天有没有好一点。”
洛神英静默了一会，微微点了点头，问道：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">有没有觉得宋毅杰自从K市回来，有一点不一样了？。”
“哪里不一样？”洛博抬了抬眼镜，问道。
洛神英无意的摸了摸额头，淡淡的说道：“没什么……”只是从优柔寡断，变得更果断……一些了。
“查到僮森的下落了吗？”
“没有，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们已经对他损害他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">身自由提起了诉讼，警方已经开始着手这件事的调查，但是至今，僮森都现身，据了解，他已经很久都没有回过他关洛雨的那个公寓了，而且据警方反映，他也没有用身份证购买飞机票和住酒店，甚至都没<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">银行提过钱，没用过移动电话。”
而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出生的时候，爸爸妈妈早就对照顾孩子厌倦了，见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一直哭泣，便叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">小雨小雨……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不喜欢这个名字，但他们都把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的抗议当成玩笑，一笑了之。
叶慧珍是个作家，她宁愿花更多的时间<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">纸上，也不愿意花更多的时间陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，小时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">总是和大哥二哥一起睡。
虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是家里的最小，但父亲是个军<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，一直都认为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">应该和哥哥们一样，什么都自己做，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着其他小朋友被爸爸妈妈呵护的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只有靠自己。
10岁，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">上四年级，那天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">上美术课，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">画了蔚蓝的天空，洁白的云朵，阳光照<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸上，妈妈用她最温柔的手给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">遮阳。就这样，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和爸爸妈妈还有哥哥们，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">草地上玩耍，过着幸福快乐的生活。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画被老师<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">全班表扬了，太贴上了班级后面的艺术墙，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">还想再画一幅画，但是二哥来学校接<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不明白为什么还没下课，他就要带回回家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不想回家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">学校<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">有朋友，有老师，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">可以获得赞美，可以拥抱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画笔，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">还有很多很多没有做完的事情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">哭着闹着，但二哥还是把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">带走了，后来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">当<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着灵台上爸爸妈妈的照片时，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">才知道，他们死了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">几乎没有感受到他们存<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的时候，就消失<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活中。生命力最重要的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">离<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">而去并没有让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">觉得悲伤，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是是懵懵懂懂的开始长大了。
等<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">回到学校，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画不知道被谁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">每个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸色都画了猪鼻子，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">看着那副被赞扬的作品，如今正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">活生生的讽刺<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，嘲笑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">自觉得将它撕了下来，扔<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了地上。
一个男孩捡起了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的画，他天真的画纸重新摊开，用胶布钉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">艺术墙上，笑着对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">喜欢这幅画。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">重新撕下画纸，觉得对方完全就是想看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出丑，于是恶狠狠地对男孩说到：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">喜欢就送给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了，反正不许再贴上去丢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">！”
虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有了父母，日子却和往常一样，没有什么区别，直到有一天，大哥说他要去美国了。那年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">才12岁，二哥牵着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的手，紧紧的牵着，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">机场看着大哥和一个陌生的外国男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，一起走进了候机大厅。
那时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">并不知道大哥说他去美国就不会回来了，直到那一年，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">过生日，平素都能收到双份礼物的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只收到了一份。
然后到了第二年，二哥红了，也更忙了，他无暇照顾<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，虽然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们时常用电话联系，见面的次数却开始减少。
小学毕业后，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">升上了一所很有名气的初中，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">迎来了自己的青春，这段时光里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">仿佛生活<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">最美丽的童话中，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的名字被打上了巨星妹妹的光环，总有一堆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">崇拜的看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，恳求<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，拜托<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">觉得自己仿佛升上了云端，是众<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">心目中的女神。
但是——
总也有一些<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">背地里说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有父母，只是仗着哥哥的荣光，是个什么都会不会的笨蛋，别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">用可怜的眼神看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只是有一次不巧被<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">听见了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">恍然明白，一些的幸福和荣光都如同脆弱的肥皂泡，只要轻轻一戳，就能破灭。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不再是懵懂无知的女孩，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">开始堕落，开始泡吧，开始和各种巴结<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">打交道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">自<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">欺骗，沉沦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的虚假中无法自拔。
直到有一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，他突然出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活里。他举着鲜花，跪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">酒吧喧哗的舞台下面，从下面仰视<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">从没恋爱过，没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">向<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">告白，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">也不知道为什么，明明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">比那些有男朋友的女生更加可爱一些，为什么从来没有向<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">告白过。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只是知道，那一刻，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">似乎不再孤单了。
后来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道，他并不是真的爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，只是开了一个“天荒地老”的玩笑，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的视线却再也无法离开他了。
和别的异性朋友不同，他不虚假，不谄媚，甚至看自己的眼神都带着真实的厌恶，是的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">他朝自己泼水的那一个刻，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">就知道了，知道了他真的真的是不爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">毁容了，二哥非常生气，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和他吵了好几次，让他不要干涉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的生活，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道二哥对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">非常好，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只要一想起僮森<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">私底下总是问<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">二哥现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">做什么？会不会拍戏很忙没有吃早饭？”“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的眉眼和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">二哥长得真像……”，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">就抑制不住心里的孤单，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不想伤害二哥，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">只是……只是不知所措的想要和他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一起。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们的关系，没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">肯退步，直到二哥说，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">同意整容，便答应和僮森相处，那时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的脸要是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">不处理，可能就会留下疤痕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">赌，所以……幸好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">赢了。然后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去了美国，还把和二哥很像的部分都整形了，然后用最快的速度赶了回来。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">悄悄联系了以前认识的“朋友”，很快僮森的消息就传到了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的耳边，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">没有对二哥提起只言片语，因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去喜欢，太傻了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">想再赌一次，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">想让僮森看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，发现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">，爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">……但这一次，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">输了一切。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">暗无天日的仓库里，他夺走了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">的钥匙，逼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">打电话约二哥出来到他指定的地方，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">给他过愿意付出一切的陈诺，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">都照做了。
然后，他不见了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">很傻。
傻到偏偏喜欢上了一个一点都不喜欢自己的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。
傻到偏偏相信对方终有一点会喜欢上自己。
傻到相信他所有的谎话，傻到明知道没有结果，却仍旧不停的伤害爱自己的亲<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">。
当洛雨醒来的时候，入目是白色的病房，洛神英静静的站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">床边，终于松了一口气，笑了笑：“洛雨……没事了……”
洁白的墙壁，洁白的床单，一切似乎都回到了过去，干净如白纸的过去。
看着妹妹又重新闭上眼睛，知道对方依旧虚弱，需要更多休息，洛神英便静静关上了病房的门，正巧看到刚倒茶回来的宋毅杰。
宋毅杰把倒好的茶递给洛神英，问道：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">出来了？洛雨怎么样了？”
“刚醒了一会，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">又睡了。”
“真的？”那真是太好了，大神应该放心了吧，不然又一直守<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">医院里，身体哪吃的消。“那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">先回去休息一下吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">来看洛雨。”
“也好。”洛神英的确觉得身体好累，把洛雨的事情暂且一放，猛然就想起三天前那混乱的一晚，谁也无法证明这一晚到底改变了什么，虽然洛神英总是想要说服自己对方只是相帮自己舒缓□而已，而男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">和男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">……就是要用那个地方……的吧。想完又觉得几十年来的风光了然无存，被看上去像大男孩模样的男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">压<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">床上……
心里太多需要思考的问题，让洛神英格外烦躁，还有对方之前对自己的告白，明明已经躲开了，但只要和那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">牵扯到关系的事情，总是意外的麻烦。
虽然依旧是衣服面无表情的样子，洛神英心底的烦忧却装满了每一处，正要踏步离开时，突然想到：“今天星期几了？”
“星期五了。”
皱起好看的眉毛，洛神英道：“星期一<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">把小宋送到幼儿园去了，等会下午<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">去把他接回来。”
“啊……哦……好的。”怪不得这几天都没见着那个小屁孩。
最后看了一眼宋毅杰，洛神英终于走出了医院大门，停<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">医院门口的洛博迎了上来，帮他打开了车门。
回公司的路上，洛博问道：“小雨今天有没有好一点。”
洛神英静默了一会，微微点了点头，问道：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">有没有觉得宋毅杰自从K市回来，有一点不一样了？。”
“哪里不一样？”洛博抬了抬眼镜，问道。
洛神英无意的摸了摸额头，淡淡的说道：“没什么……”只是从优柔寡断，变得更果断……一些了。
“查到僮森的下落了吗？”
“没有，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">们已经对他损害他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">身自由提起了诉讼，警方已经开始着手这件事的调查，但是至今，僮森都现身，据了解，他已经很久都没有回过他关洛雨的那个公寓了，而且据警方反映，他也没有用身份证购买飞机票和住酒店，甚至都没<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.combadd82b9b6">银行提过钱，没用过移动电话。”