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早饭过后,朝露和云衡回到卧室,看着凌乱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床榻,不约而同地吃吃笑起来，脸上写满甜蜜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">羞涩。朝露勾住他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">脖子,深深地望着他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼睛，却什么话也说不出。她曾以为，女孩子在经历初夜时,总会有些犹豫和患得患失,可当他进入她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体里,她尝到了一种前所未有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">奇异<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">疼痛,清楚地提醒着她正在失去什么,可内心却没有半分恐慌和迟疑，只感到荣耀和幸福。她让他贴得更紧，更加贪婪地与他一同享受彼此时而粗鲁时而轻柔<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱抚。把自己给他——那于她是件很美很自然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事，并不羞耻。那一刻，她只想被她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男人倾心所爱。
他终于忍不住，扔开手杖抱住她狂吻。他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">右臂是强壮有力<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，而左臂虽然无力，却也虚虚地竭尽全力揽在了她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腰际。朝露一手勾着他，一手拉着他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">左手，帮助他贴住自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腰肢。他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">吻如渐渐止歇<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">雨水，越来越温柔而轻盈。
许久，他恋恋不舍地从她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">唇瓣上离开，眼睛里还有尚未褪尽<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">热力。“朝露，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有件东西送给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她流露出孩子面对礼物时那般期待<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神。他一只手握紧她，慢慢探□去拾刚刚被扔在地上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手杖。随后走去床头柜，从抽屉里拿出一个原木<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">小匣，很小心地调整了一下站立<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">姿势。匣子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">形状四四方方<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，虽然能和手杖同时拿在手上，可这样大约无法握紧手杖头，使不出力来，因此他走得格外小心，手杖点地时能借<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">力道少了许多，他走得比平时更慢，腰部甩动时特别吃力。
朝露见他这样走了三步就看不下去了，赶紧走过去扶着他坐下。“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">过去就好了嘛，知不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">好担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
他笑了笑：“别怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">平衡力很强，摔不了。”
她没告诉他，她不止是担心他摔跤，而是眼见他短短几步路就挪动得这么辛苦，她心疼到极点。
他把小匣放到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">掌心：“昨天就想给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">了……”
是什么呢？是什么都好，这可是他们交往后，他第一次送她礼物呀。她很郑重地打开匣子，里面是一条老琉璃手链，主体是透明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">墨绿色瓜棱珠，间或用半透明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">西瓜粉琉璃隔片隔开，链身上还坠了一个小小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">银质莲蓬和一片玉石小荷叶，整条手链配色是鲜丽粉嫩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">撞色，却不失清雅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">意境，让人想到荷塘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">清丽，正适合这夏天里佩戴。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">没装搭扣，用<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">是有弹力<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">线穿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，因为……”他伸手握住那串手链，眼睛里盛满暖融融<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱意，“用搭扣<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">就没办法亲自替<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">戴上了。”
等等——她反应过来：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">是说，这条手链是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">自己穿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">？”
“嗯。”
“很难吗？”
“不难。”他淡淡地说。“把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她傻傻地伸出手，由他把手链从她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">指尖套进去，一直套到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">洁白<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腕上。他满足地一笑，托起她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手，在她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腕上吻了一下：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">真美。”
“云衡……”她幸福得快晕过去了。一想到他说，原本昨天就要把手链送给她时，她又心痛暗悔不已，如果他不能体谅她，如果他不是那么包容她，她险些就要错失如此宝贵<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一份心意了！当他兴冲冲地从市郊跑到市中心找她，一路上，他带着亲手制作<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">礼物、一定在脑海里想象过很多遍她戴上它时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">表情，可她给了他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">回应竟然是对于他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身份予以遮遮掩掩！他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">心已经被她伤透了，还要反过头来安慰她，说“没关系”、说“对不起”，说是他不够好，是他没有给她足够<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时间去真正接受自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男朋友是残疾人<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事实。——云衡，云衡……她把脸孔贴向那透着微凉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">琉璃珠串，忍不住扑簌簌地掉下眼泪。
“朝露，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">大概能猜到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">在想什么。别哭！”他拉近她，拿指腹轻轻拭去她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼泪，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">不难过，真<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">已经不难过了。所以，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">别再继续钻牛角尖了。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">们要相处<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">日子还会很长，要面对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">问题还有很多，如果现在这种程度<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事就能惹到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">才更不好受。别让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有负罪感，好么？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有什么罪？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">那么好。”
“对，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">没有罪。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">只是身体残疾了，可<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有资格爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！爱是天赋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">权利，就像只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">也可以选择这个不够完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一样。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，对吗？就算<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">只有一半<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体可以动！”
“是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意！”她当然愿意。她早就该知道，她捡到宝了。他固然不完美，可是除了残障<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体，他还有什么不完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">么？没有了，再也没有了！她不能奢求有更好<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱人，她没有那么贪心。
他坚持由他来清洗昨夜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单，表情不容商量。他捧着那一斑小小血痕，呆呆看了好一会儿，才把床单放入浸了洗衣液<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">水盆中。
虽是夏天，他用<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">却不是普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">竹席或是草席，而是铺了一层真丝。她故意和他玩笑，说他是“资本家派头，真考究！”，他很认真地说：“身体已经这样了，不敢让它变得更糟。”她想了想，便明白他之所以选择丝绸床单，除了追求滑爽<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">体感之外，恐怕更是因为他有一半<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体丧失了灵敏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">感觉，普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">席子很容易弄伤他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">皮肤，而他却未必能第一时间留意到。
她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男人，身体<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一侧麻痹，需要手杖才能远行；呼吸系统敏感，需要经常换洗床上用品；他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">肠胃也似乎不太好，饮食清淡而有规律，听说最初也是因为要调理肠胃才喜欢喝沉香水……他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">生活有好多地方需要比常人留心几倍，可朝露此刻想到这些，脱口而出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">竟然是：“云衡，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">要好好爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她喜欢从身后抱住他，他那么高，那么挺拔，身上又总是带着很淡很好闻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">气息，她抱着他，很安心。而且，她也知道，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">姿势，能让他站得更稳，尤其是在他无法腾出手拄手杖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候。
他站在水斗前，用单手在脸盆里细细揉搓泡在水中<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单。还好，真丝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单很薄，他洗起来不神费力。拧干<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候，少不了要她帮忙。他把晾衣杆调低，和她一起把床单晾上去。
昨晚那个指甲盖大小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">红印已经不见痕迹。有水滴从往下缓缓滴落到阳台瓷砖上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">声音，很轻。
他望着那月白如新<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单，眼神那样温柔而动容：“朝露，谢谢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">……一切。”
进公司之前，朝露就预料到方蕴洲会就昨天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事有所反应。所以在她进办公室为他送咖啡时，他用那种交杂着困惑与伤感<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神看着自己时，她并不意外。一上午都有些琐碎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">公事要处理，他和她都很忙，所有应对也都是公事上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">接触，俩人对昨天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事均只字未提。然而朝露几次不经意间看到方蕴洲欲言又止<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">神情，她便心知肚明，迟早他会就她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事发表看法。
要说她对方蕴洲即将说什么全无所谓，那也不尽然。她当然希望自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱情被鼓励、被赞赏，最低程度也不要成为别人口中议论<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">笑柄或是憾事。只是她也明白要从方蕴洲嘴里听到祝福<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">话很难。他对她还存着一份远深于同事和普通旧相识<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">用心——对此她并非无知无觉，即便撇开这一层，一般人也不会对她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">恋爱前景持乐观态度。她为此满心刺痛，却无可奈何。她心爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男人，永远无法摆脱他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">残障。他明明可以给她幸福，却难免处处遭受怀疑——人们不能相信，拖着半边麻痹<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体、仅仅凭借一手一脚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">他如何能为她撑起一场完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱情。
可是朝露相信。曾几何时她也像所有凡俗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">人一样，或多或少有意无意间用居高临下<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神，质疑过他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">价值，而现在回头想想，当初<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">她才像个路过珍宝而不知<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">傻瓜。
忙碌<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">间隙，她几次忍不住拨弄手上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">那串琉璃珠，眉梢眼底都是笑笑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。
她没好意思告诉褚云衡，在他亲手为她戴上这串手链、并告诉她这是他用单手把一个个珠子穿起来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候，她几乎有种被套上订婚戒指<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">感觉。如果那个时候，他向她提出求婚，她大概也会立刻答应<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。她和他交往时间不长，谈婚论嫁未免言之过早，可她被他完全迷住了，这一点毋庸置疑。
“朝露，中午可以一起吃饭吗？”
终于还是来了——意料之中。朝露一秒钟也没犹豫就点了头：“好。”
她做好了接受洗脑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">准备，同时也打定主意预备仅此一次。她不想在褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">问题上和方蕴洲多做探讨，这既没必要也不会产生有意义<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">结果，说到底，她本就无须给他任何交代，她之所以明知如此还愿意和他谈上这一回，是觉得与其让他心底一直纠结着一个疑问，不如自自然然地把她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事谈开，她越避而不提，方蕴洲就越会胡思乱想，这对谁也没有好处。
他终于忍不住，扔开手杖抱住她狂吻。他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">右臂是强壮有力<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，而左臂虽然无力，却也虚虚地竭尽全力揽在了她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腰际。朝露一手勾着他，一手拉着他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">左手，帮助他贴住自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腰肢。他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">吻如渐渐止歇<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">雨水，越来越温柔而轻盈。
许久，他恋恋不舍地从她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">唇瓣上离开，眼睛里还有尚未褪尽<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">热力。“朝露，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有件东西送给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她流露出孩子面对礼物时那般期待<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神。他一只手握紧她，慢慢探□去拾刚刚被扔在地上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手杖。随后走去床头柜，从抽屉里拿出一个原木<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">小匣，很小心地调整了一下站立<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">姿势。匣子<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">形状四四方方<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，虽然能和手杖同时拿在手上，可这样大约无法握紧手杖头，使不出力来，因此他走得格外小心，手杖点地时能借<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">力道少了许多，他走得比平时更慢，腰部甩动时特别吃力。
朝露见他这样走了三步就看不下去了，赶紧走过去扶着他坐下。“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">过去就好了嘛，知不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">好担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
他笑了笑：“别怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">平衡力很强，摔不了。”
她没告诉他，她不止是担心他摔跤，而是眼见他短短几步路就挪动得这么辛苦，她心疼到极点。
他把小匣放到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">掌心：“昨天就想给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">了……”
是什么呢？是什么都好，这可是他们交往后，他第一次送她礼物呀。她很郑重地打开匣子，里面是一条老琉璃手链，主体是透明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">墨绿色瓜棱珠，间或用半透明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">西瓜粉琉璃隔片隔开，链身上还坠了一个小小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">银质莲蓬和一片玉石小荷叶，整条手链配色是鲜丽粉嫩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">撞色，却不失清雅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">意境，让人想到荷塘<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">清丽，正适合这夏天里佩戴。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">没装搭扣，用<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">是有弹力<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">线穿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，因为……”他伸手握住那串手链，眼睛里盛满暖融融<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱意，“用搭扣<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">话，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">就没办法亲自替<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">戴上了。”
等等——她反应过来：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">是说，这条手链是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">自己穿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">？”
“嗯。”
“很难吗？”
“不难。”他淡淡地说。“把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她傻傻地伸出手，由他把手链从她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">指尖套进去，一直套到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">洁白<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腕上。他满足地一笑，托起她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">手，在她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">腕上吻了一下：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">真美。”
“云衡……”她幸福得快晕过去了。一想到他说，原本昨天就要把手链送给她时，她又心痛暗悔不已，如果他不能体谅她，如果他不是那么包容她，她险些就要错失如此宝贵<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一份心意了！当他兴冲冲地从市郊跑到市中心找她，一路上，他带着亲手制作<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">礼物、一定在脑海里想象过很多遍她戴上它时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">表情，可她给了他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">回应竟然是对于他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身份予以遮遮掩掩！他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">心已经被她伤透了，还要反过头来安慰她，说“没关系”、说“对不起”，说是他不够好，是他没有给她足够<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时间去真正接受自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男朋友是残疾人<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事实。——云衡，云衡……她把脸孔贴向那透着微凉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">琉璃珠串，忍不住扑簌簌地掉下眼泪。
“朝露，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">大概能猜到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">在想什么。别哭！”他拉近她，拿指腹轻轻拭去她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼泪，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">不难过，真<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">已经不难过了。所以，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">别再继续钻牛角尖了。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">们要相处<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">日子还会很长，要面对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">问题还有很多，如果现在这种程度<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事就能惹到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">才更不好受。别让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有负罪感，好么？”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有什么罪？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">那么好。”
“对，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">没有罪。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">只是身体残疾了，可<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">有资格爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！爱是天赋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">权利，就像只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">也可以选择这个不够完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一样。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">，对吗？就算<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">只有一半<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体可以动！”
“是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">！<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">愿意！”她当然愿意。她早就该知道，她捡到宝了。他固然不完美，可是除了残障<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体，他还有什么不完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">么？没有了，再也没有了！她不能奢求有更好<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱人，她没有那么贪心。
他坚持由他来清洗昨夜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单，表情不容商量。他捧着那一斑小小血痕，呆呆看了好一会儿，才把床单放入浸了洗衣液<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">水盆中。
虽是夏天，他用<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">却不是普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">竹席或是草席，而是铺了一层真丝。她故意和他玩笑，说他是“资本家派头，真考究！”，他很认真地说：“身体已经这样了，不敢让它变得更糟。”她想了想，便明白他之所以选择丝绸床单，除了追求滑爽<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">体感之外，恐怕更是因为他有一半<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体丧失了灵敏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">感觉，普通<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">席子很容易弄伤他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">皮肤，而他却未必能第一时间留意到。
她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男人，身体<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">一侧麻痹，需要手杖才能远行；呼吸系统敏感，需要经常换洗床上用品；他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">肠胃也似乎不太好，饮食清淡而有规律，听说最初也是因为要调理肠胃才喜欢喝沉香水……他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">生活有好多地方需要比常人留心几倍，可朝露此刻想到这些，脱口而出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">竟然是：“云衡，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">要好好爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。”
她喜欢从身后抱住他，他那么高，那么挺拔，身上又总是带着很淡很好闻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">气息，她抱着他，很安心。而且，她也知道，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">姿势，能让他站得更稳，尤其是在他无法腾出手拄手杖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候。
他站在水斗前，用单手在脸盆里细细揉搓泡在水中<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单。还好，真丝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单很薄，他洗起来不神费力。拧干<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候，少不了要她帮忙。他把晾衣杆调低，和她一起把床单晾上去。
昨晚那个指甲盖大小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">红印已经不见痕迹。有水滴从往下缓缓滴落到阳台瓷砖上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">声音，很轻。
他望着那月白如新<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">床单，眼神那样温柔而动容：“朝露，谢谢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">……一切。”
进公司之前，朝露就预料到方蕴洲会就昨天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事有所反应。所以在她进办公室为他送咖啡时，他用那种交杂着困惑与伤感<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神看着自己时，她并不意外。一上午都有些琐碎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">公事要处理，他和她都很忙，所有应对也都是公事上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">接触，俩人对昨天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事均只字未提。然而朝露几次不经意间看到方蕴洲欲言又止<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">神情，她便心知肚明，迟早他会就她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事发表看法。
要说她对方蕴洲即将说什么全无所谓，那也不尽然。她当然希望自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱情被鼓励、被赞赏，最低程度也不要成为别人口中议论<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">笑柄或是憾事。只是她也明白要从方蕴洲嘴里听到祝福<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">话很难。他对她还存着一份远深于同事和普通旧相识<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">用心——对此她并非无知无觉，即便撇开这一层，一般人也不会对她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">恋爱前景持乐观态度。她为此满心刺痛，却无可奈何。她心爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">男人，永远无法摆脱他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">残障。他明明可以给她幸福，却难免处处遭受怀疑——人们不能相信，拖着半边麻痹<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">身体、仅仅凭借一手一脚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">他如何能为她撑起一场完美<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">爱情。
可是朝露相信。曾几何时她也像所有凡俗<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">人一样，或多或少有意无意间用居高临下<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">眼神，质疑过他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">价值，而现在回头想想，当初<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">她才像个路过珍宝而不知<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">傻瓜。
忙碌<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">间隙，她几次忍不住拨弄手上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">那串琉璃珠，眉梢眼底都是笑笑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。
她没好意思告诉褚云衡，在他亲手为她戴上这串手链、并告诉她这是他用单手把一个个珠子穿起来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">时候，她几乎有种被套上订婚戒指<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">感觉。如果那个时候，他向她提出求婚，她大概也会立刻答应<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">。她和他交往时间不长，谈婚论嫁未免言之过早，可她被他完全迷住了，这一点毋庸置疑。
“朝露，中午可以一起吃饭吗？”
终于还是来了——意料之中。朝露一秒钟也没犹豫就点了头：“好。”
她做好了接受洗脑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">准备，同时也打定主意预备仅此一次。她不想在褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">问题上和方蕴洲多做探讨，这既没必要也不会产生有意义<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">结果，说到底，她本就无须给他任何交代，她之所以明知如此还愿意和他谈上这一回，是觉得与其让他心底一直纠结着一个疑问，不如自自然然地把她和褚云衡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.comacc3213c49">事谈开，她越避而不提，方蕴洲就越会胡思乱想，这对谁也没有好处。