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莫漓靠着门呆坐了一个小时,最初的时候，好像听到房间里头传来哭泣的声音,莫漓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">门外抱着头，眼泪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">眼眶打转。后来，房间渐渐没有声音了，莫漓好几次都想敲门,只是手才举起,又停格<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">空中。
道歉的话是那么苍白，可是除了道歉，还可以做些什么？莫漓想不通,明明面前是答案,却撕掉不要。
说尹睿曦胆小,说乐澄退缩，莫漓自知有口说别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没口说自己。说到最胆小怕事退缩不勇敢的，不就是自己么？以前那个勇敢的自己丢失<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哪呢？能找回吗？是不是失望的次数愈多，就愈不懂得希望？是不是，自己本来就不适合谈恋爱？谈恋爱比起工作，累太多太多了，身体的累，心神的累。
「小姐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">这里干什么？」
莫漓闻声抬起头，跟她说话的是一名饭店的男员工。
莫漓站起来，尴尬地说：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">妹吵架了……不好意思，待会她气下了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">就会进去的。」
「小姐，可以麻烦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">坐那边吗？那边有沙发椅又能看到这房门。因为现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">信道，会阻碍信道亦会为其他住客带来不好的观感，这样会让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很为难的。」男员工耐心解释道。
「真的不好意思。」莫漓点点头，把行李箱推到信道中间近升降机的位置，坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">男员工所说的沙发上。
这个位置何止能看到房门，连什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">进出这一层也知道，彷佛是保安一样。
待男员工离开这楼层后，莫漓又把行李箱推回房门前，靠着门坐下来。
又过了两小时，期间有住客经过看到莫漓，都对莫漓投以注目礼，莫漓只低着头，回避这些目光。
也许被住客投诉了，那名男员工又出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">莫漓眼前，这次分明是冲着莫漓去的。
「小姐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">妹妹还没生完气吗？如果还不让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">进去，到那边坐着等吧，不要再坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">通道了。要不然，需要另外开一间房间休息，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也十分乐意为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">服务的。」男员工说。
「真的不好意思。」莫漓无奈地又站起来。
正当莫漓要离开的时候，门打开了，沈濠盈轻声说：「进来吧。」
莫漓点点头，进了房间，要关门的时候又对男员工说了句：「不好意思。」
回头看到沈濠盈红肿的双眼，莫漓脸有愧色，低声道：「盈盈，对不起……」
沈濠盈摇摇头，拉起莫漓的手，一同坐下来。
等了一会儿，沈濠盈才道：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不要只想着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，不要想着不能辜负<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也要为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">自己负责的。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">心里最爱是谁，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">早已经有答案，只是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不愿意当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对不对？」
不想当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，不想扮演始乱终弃的角色，所以不愿意先提分手，是这样吗？
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">只是……」莫漓扶着额头，当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有什么所谓？她都当了小三这个坏角色那么久，还会怕当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">吗？只是感到很迷茫，看不清楚前面的方向，「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间可以吗？」
「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间忘了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱的她吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">们都知道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有办法做到的。还是说，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间去爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">？」沈濠盈叹了口气，又笑了笑，「完全不介意<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">心里另有他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是假的，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">生气不是因为看到她，是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不坦诚和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的懦弱。其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的很好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很能干，什么事都处理得很好。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">国外的那段日子，其实都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">照顾<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">安排一切，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">玩得尽兴，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有没有想过，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">要的是什么？」
可以说，沈濠盈是这几年来，第一个常常给予莫漓肯定的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">。莫漓会有不自信的时候，尤其是她钻牛角尖的时候，特别的不自信，连带笑容都变了调。这些日子里，沈濠盈从不吝啬去夸奖莫漓，由衷真诚地给予莫漓肯定。帮助莫漓重新建立信心，连带沈濠盈自己也慢慢变得自信起来，不再用头发盖住自己的脸，因为她知道平平无奇的脸，也是属于她自己独特而值得爱惜的一块。当然，当中也少不了莫漓的功劳，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">这个世界上，最疼她的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，就只有莫漓和于婕妤了，莫漓给予的爱护，还能弥补了一部分家庭给予不了的温暖，而莫漓也带她见识到这个世界更多面貌。就算当不成恋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，沈濠盈还是很庆幸认识到莫漓，也许这就是所谓得到的会比失去的还更贵重。
「对不起。」莫漓低下了头。
「茉莉，不要担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">自己就可以。像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">经常说的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还年轻嘛，要放下只需要一些时间，再重新开始一段恋情也不难。」沈濠盈看到莫漓只摇摇头不发一言，便说：「好吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">承认<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有抄袭偶像剧的对白，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的也这样想。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">常把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">当作小孩，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的不是小孩了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也有恋爱经验，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不敢说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是专家，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">懂得爱是什么的。说真的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有这么伟大，也没有这么无私，把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还给她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有办法做到不介意。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">啊，当然想和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一起，只是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">最灿烂的笑容，不是属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱她啊，念念不忘的是她。其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有点恨<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，恨<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">优悠寡断。不爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，还对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不离不弃，不是对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">更残忍吗？」
「对不起……」莫漓吸了吸鼻子，她低着头，沈濠盈看不清她是否<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">们都曾努力过嘛，努力过，不适合也没办法啊……」沈濠盈看见莫漓的肩膀微微抽动，应该是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭了，「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">啊，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">谁更像小孩啊？嗯？」
莫漓双手捂脸，似乎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">极力平伏情绪。过了一会儿，莫漓抹去脸上的泪痕，看着沈濠盈，问：「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间可以吗？」
「茉莉……」沈濠盈皱起眉头，这回她真的有些不解了，怎么莫漓还是要勉强自己呢？
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的确很自私，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">只是想过一些平淡快乐的生活而已……」莫漓缓缓地说。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">把自己逼得太紧了。」沈濠盈忍不住伸手抱着莫漓，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">她耳边轻声说：「安总她离婚是为了与<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">都知道了。既然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱她，她又爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，为什么硬要把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">拉进来呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">逃避她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还是爱她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有情有义，但不是爱啊。茉莉，遇到问题要站出来面对。」
站出来面对，谈何容易？那么多未知，那么多的彷徨与恐惧。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不想这样……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的不想这样……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">分不清她的话哪句是真哪句是假，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不想再重蹈覆辙了。到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的再不需要她为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">做些什么了，她却……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不知道要怎么办，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">甚至不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱的是谁……」莫漓抱着沈濠盈痛哭流涕，这是沈濠盈第一次看到莫漓如此软弱的一面。平日总像个大姐姐一样的照顾着她，为她打点一切，原来她会有这样的一面。憋了多久呢？才不得不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">面前崩溃一次。
自欺欺<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">到最后，还是得面对。再多的谎言也不会让假的变成真的，爱与不爱就像咳嗽一样，没法伪装也没法掩饰，压抑着始终不肯咳出来的后果便是，咳嗽得更厉害更辛苦。
等到莫漓哭完了，沈濠盈才松开了怀抱，掏出面纸递给莫漓，莫漓不好意思地别过头整理她那眼泪鼻涕满脸的狼狈。又等了一会儿，见莫漓的状态好一点了，沈濠盈才说：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">回联盟去了，好好照顾自己，想清楚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">要的是什么，不要再惹别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭了。」才站起来，就想起有话还没讲，「还有，不要再抽烟了，再不快乐都不要再抽烟了。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">总是偷偷地抽烟，别以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没发现，指缝间的烟味是香水也盖不掉的。」
沈濠盈上前提起她的行李，莫漓也站起来，道：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">回去。」
沈濠盈看看手表，然后对莫漓笑了笑，说：「妤和她男朋友来接<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">了，再见。」
「再见……」
看着沈濠盈离开，莫漓颓然跌卧<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">床上。有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">说：「当<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真正喜欢一样东西，但它又给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">带来伤害的时候，其实这是老天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">考验<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是否足够坚持。」爱得那么痛，真的要坚持吗？但是放弃过却放不下，那除了坚持，莫漓还可以怎么办？
其实谁没<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱情里头受过伤害？痛苦之中找到了那独有的快乐，死也痛快。只是可能，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对死亡都会存有恐惧，但当什么后顾之忧都消失以后，需要害怕的是什么？再没有什么输的本钱，为什么不愿意背水一战？还是说，反正都是这个鸟样子了，得过且过，不痛不痒，就活一辈了。可是，甘心吗？如果甘心的话，为何心里总有个结，总有点怨恨，总想念着那个她？
这个晚上，莫漓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">床上昏昏沉沉却没法入睡，有时候会睁大眼睛捱着时刻，脑袋却运作不了。
如果是安罄漩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">莫漓身上下了魔咒，莫漓希望这咒可以下重一点，重到她不怕痛，仍愿意奋不顾身去爱，不然，请解除魔咒。不上不下，就像当初安罄漩不冷不热的态度，那么多煎熬。
沈濠盈走了，好像就真的只剩下自己了，以前总习惯一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">竟有点害怕一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">。一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">容易陷入走不出的死胡同，一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">容易自嫌自弃。
天亮了，难得有好天气，要不要再一次重新开始？
作者有话要说：再过几章就要结文了，谢谢各位一路支持。当中有不完善的地方，小作者会持续改进的。
然后……都要结文了，求长评啊！（长评记得要填上标题喔）
明天爱谁
曲： 陈威全 词： 瑞业
窗没关 睡不好 天已亮
难得阳光 却烫醒刚冷掉的伤
我关上 你打开的窗
现在一个人飞翔 我忘了方向
回忆怎么作废
我们总是学不会
只能像一张曾用爱暖过的被
折放在衣柜
明天我爱谁 别让我流泪
你走后偶尔夜太黑
我无路退 就面对
明天我还爱谁 我自由的飞
一场雨下完我的泪
最后要我和谁学会 爱的完美
道歉的话是那么苍白，可是除了道歉，还可以做些什么？莫漓想不通,明明面前是答案,却撕掉不要。
说尹睿曦胆小,说乐澄退缩，莫漓自知有口说别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没口说自己。说到最胆小怕事退缩不勇敢的，不就是自己么？以前那个勇敢的自己丢失<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哪呢？能找回吗？是不是失望的次数愈多，就愈不懂得希望？是不是，自己本来就不适合谈恋爱？谈恋爱比起工作，累太多太多了，身体的累，心神的累。
「小姐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">这里干什么？」
莫漓闻声抬起头，跟她说话的是一名饭店的男员工。
莫漓站起来，尴尬地说：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">妹吵架了……不好意思，待会她气下了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">就会进去的。」
「小姐，可以麻烦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">坐那边吗？那边有沙发椅又能看到这房门。因为现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">信道，会阻碍信道亦会为其他住客带来不好的观感，这样会让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很为难的。」男员工耐心解释道。
「真的不好意思。」莫漓点点头，把行李箱推到信道中间近升降机的位置，坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">男员工所说的沙发上。
这个位置何止能看到房门，连什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">进出这一层也知道，彷佛是保安一样。
待男员工离开这楼层后，莫漓又把行李箱推回房门前，靠着门坐下来。
又过了两小时，期间有住客经过看到莫漓，都对莫漓投以注目礼，莫漓只低着头，回避这些目光。
也许被住客投诉了，那名男员工又出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">莫漓眼前，这次分明是冲着莫漓去的。
「小姐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">妹妹还没生完气吗？如果还不让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">进去，到那边坐着等吧，不要再坐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">通道了。要不然，需要另外开一间房间休息，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也十分乐意为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">服务的。」男员工说。
「真的不好意思。」莫漓无奈地又站起来。
正当莫漓要离开的时候，门打开了，沈濠盈轻声说：「进来吧。」
莫漓点点头，进了房间，要关门的时候又对男员工说了句：「不好意思。」
回头看到沈濠盈红肿的双眼，莫漓脸有愧色，低声道：「盈盈，对不起……」
沈濠盈摇摇头，拉起莫漓的手，一同坐下来。
等了一会儿，沈濠盈才道：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不要只想着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，不要想着不能辜负<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也要为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">自己负责的。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">心里最爱是谁，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">早已经有答案，只是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不愿意当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对不对？」
不想当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，不想扮演始乱终弃的角色，所以不愿意先提分手，是这样吗？
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">只是……」莫漓扶着额头，当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有什么所谓？她都当了小三这个坏角色那么久，还会怕当坏<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">吗？只是感到很迷茫，看不清楚前面的方向，「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间可以吗？」
「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间忘了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱的她吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">们都知道，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有办法做到的。还是说，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间去爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">？」沈濠盈叹了口气，又笑了笑，「完全不介意<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">心里另有他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是假的，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">生气不是因为看到她，是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不坦诚和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的懦弱。其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的很好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很能干，什么事都处理得很好。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">国外的那段日子，其实都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">照顾<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">安排一切，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">玩得尽兴，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有没有想过，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">要的是什么？」
可以说，沈濠盈是这几年来，第一个常常给予莫漓肯定的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">。莫漓会有不自信的时候，尤其是她钻牛角尖的时候，特别的不自信，连带笑容都变了调。这些日子里，沈濠盈从不吝啬去夸奖莫漓，由衷真诚地给予莫漓肯定。帮助莫漓重新建立信心，连带沈濠盈自己也慢慢变得自信起来，不再用头发盖住自己的脸，因为她知道平平无奇的脸，也是属于她自己独特而值得爱惜的一块。当然，当中也少不了莫漓的功劳，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">这个世界上，最疼她的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，就只有莫漓和于婕妤了，莫漓给予的爱护，还能弥补了一部分家庭给予不了的温暖，而莫漓也带她见识到这个世界更多面貌。就算当不成恋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，沈濠盈还是很庆幸认识到莫漓，也许这就是所谓得到的会比失去的还更贵重。
「对不起。」莫漓低下了头。
「茉莉，不要担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">自己就可以。像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">经常说的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还年轻嘛，要放下只需要一些时间，再重新开始一段恋情也不难。」沈濠盈看到莫漓只摇摇头不发一言，便说：「好吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">承认<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有抄袭偶像剧的对白，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的也这样想。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">常把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">当作小孩，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的不是小孩了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">也有恋爱经验，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不敢说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是专家，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">懂得爱是什么的。说真的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有这么伟大，也没有这么无私，把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还给她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没有办法做到不介意。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">啊，当然想和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一起，只是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">最灿烂的笑容，不是属于<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱她啊，念念不忘的是她。其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有点恨<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，恨<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">优悠寡断。不爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，还对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不离不弃，不是对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">更残忍吗？」
「对不起……」莫漓吸了吸鼻子，她低着头，沈濠盈看不清她是否<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">们都曾努力过嘛，努力过，不适合也没办法啊……」沈濠盈看见莫漓的肩膀微微抽动，应该是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭了，「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">啊，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">谁更像小孩啊？嗯？」
莫漓双手捂脸，似乎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">极力平伏情绪。过了一会儿，莫漓抹去脸上的泪痕，看着沈濠盈，问：「给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一点时间可以吗？」
「茉莉……」沈濠盈皱起眉头，这回她真的有些不解了，怎么莫漓还是要勉强自己呢？
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">的确很自私，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">只是想过一些平淡快乐的生活而已……」莫漓缓缓地说。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">把自己逼得太紧了。」沈濠盈忍不住伸手抱着莫漓，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">她耳边轻声说：「安总她离婚是为了与<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">一起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">都知道了。既然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱她，她又爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，为什么硬要把<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">拉进来呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">逃避她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">还是爱她，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">有情有义，但不是爱啊。茉莉，遇到问题要站出来面对。」
站出来面对，谈何容易？那么多未知，那么多的彷徨与恐惧。
「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不想这样……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的不想这样……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">分不清她的话哪句是真哪句是假，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不想再重蹈覆辙了。到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真的再不需要她为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">做些什么了，她却……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">很怕，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">不知道要怎么办，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">甚至不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱的是谁……」莫漓抱着沈濠盈痛哭流涕，这是沈濠盈第一次看到莫漓如此软弱的一面。平日总像个大姐姐一样的照顾着她，为她打点一切，原来她会有这样的一面。憋了多久呢？才不得不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">面前崩溃一次。
自欺欺<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">到最后，还是得面对。再多的谎言也不会让假的变成真的，爱与不爱就像咳嗽一样，没法伪装也没法掩饰，压抑着始终不肯咳出来的后果便是，咳嗽得更厉害更辛苦。
等到莫漓哭完了，沈濠盈才松开了怀抱，掏出面纸递给莫漓，莫漓不好意思地别过头整理她那眼泪鼻涕满脸的狼狈。又等了一会儿，见莫漓的状态好一点了，沈濠盈才说：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">回联盟去了，好好照顾自己，想清楚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">要的是什么，不要再惹别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">哭了。」才站起来，就想起有话还没讲，「还有，不要再抽烟了，再不快乐都不要再抽烟了。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">总是偷偷地抽烟，别以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">没发现，指缝间的烟味是香水也盖不掉的。」
沈濠盈上前提起她的行李，莫漓也站起来，道：「<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">回去。」
沈濠盈看看手表，然后对莫漓笑了笑，说：「妤和她男朋友来接<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">了，再见。」
「再见……」
看着沈濠盈离开，莫漓颓然跌卧<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">床上。有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">说：「当<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">真正喜欢一样东西，但它又给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">带来伤害的时候，其实这是老天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">考验<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comc31f744897">是否足够坚持。」爱得那么痛，真的要坚持吗？但是放弃过却放不下，那除了坚持，莫漓还可以怎么办？
其实谁没<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">爱情里头受过伤害？痛苦之中找到了那独有的快乐，死也痛快。只是可能，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">对死亡都会存有恐惧，但当什么后顾之忧都消失以后，需要害怕的是什么？再没有什么输的本钱，为什么不愿意背水一战？还是说，反正都是这个鸟样子了，得过且过，不痛不痒，就活一辈了。可是，甘心吗？如果甘心的话，为何心里总有个结，总有点怨恨，总想念着那个她？
这个晚上，莫漓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">床上昏昏沉沉却没法入睡，有时候会睁大眼睛捱着时刻，脑袋却运作不了。
如果是安罄漩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">莫漓身上下了魔咒，莫漓希望这咒可以下重一点，重到她不怕痛，仍愿意奋不顾身去爱，不然，请解除魔咒。不上不下，就像当初安罄漩不冷不热的态度，那么多煎熬。
沈濠盈走了，好像就真的只剩下自己了，以前总习惯一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comc31f744897">竟有点害怕一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">。一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">容易陷入走不出的死胡同，一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comc31f744897">容易自嫌自弃。
天亮了，难得有好天气，要不要再一次重新开始？
作者有话要说：再过几章就要结文了，谢谢各位一路支持。当中有不完善的地方，小作者会持续改进的。
然后……都要结文了，求长评啊！（长评记得要填上标题喔）
明天爱谁
曲： 陈威全 词： 瑞业
窗没关 睡不好 天已亮
难得阳光 却烫醒刚冷掉的伤
我关上 你打开的窗
现在一个人飞翔 我忘了方向
回忆怎么作废
我们总是学不会
只能像一张曾用爱暖过的被
折放在衣柜
明天我爱谁 别让我流泪
你走后偶尔夜太黑
我无路退 就面对
明天我还爱谁 我自由的飞
一场雨下完我的泪
最后要我和谁学会 爱的完美