正文 125第一百二十五章
“所以,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">这是承认了？”心中早有准备,见她如此淡定,路影年也不觉得有什么,心中泛起<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">酸涩感却怎么都止不住，眼神依旧温柔，嘴角<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">弧度却已然有了些许苦涩意味。
“其实有很多次……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">都能知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。”收了笑容,表情平静，同路影年对视着,手覆上她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸庞,指尖一点点地在上头触摸着，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">嗓音很轻很轻，轻得让路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那双黑亮眸子萌上了一层迷离。
夏日<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">午后,阳光灿烂得灼热,一滴汗顺着额角缓缓滑下，路影年没有任何反应，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">指尖往上移了些许，抚去那滴汗，见她还是那有些呆呆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">神情，轻声一叹，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们进去吧，外头好热。”
“嗯。”回过神来，路影年点了点头，伸手握住那在自己脸上轻抚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手，牵着她一同进了别墅。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">以为这里会布满灰尘。”踏进那扇木门，打量着四周，所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切都和自己离开前一模一样，连自己走之前在客厅放着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">杯子都还在那里，曹清浅睫毛轻轻颤着，握紧了路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手，“现在想来……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那么执着，连花都种了，又怎么会让这里蒙上尘埃。”
手一扯将她拉到怀里，路影年自后搂着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">腰，下巴靠着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩膀，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">人，一直都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是不是？”
平日里在曹清浅面前总是温柔而笃定，好似无论发生什么她都会保护她，无所畏惧，这一刻，明明搂着她，路影年却发现自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">整颗心都在颤抖，连手也跟着发抖起来，即使已经知晓答案，却又在这将要听到曹清浅亲口所说之前，有了一丝恐惧。
垂着眼帘，背对着路影年，看不到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情，却能看到那搂着自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">腰<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手连手指都在轻微抖着，周遭安静极了，静得连身后之人<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">心跳声都能听得一清二楚，曹清浅放软了身子，倚在路影年怀里，仿佛就这么将自己交给她一般<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，闭上了眼，不说话。
呼吸逐渐急促，紧紧搂着她，眼睛直视前方，眼眶却隐隐已经有些发红，路影年咬着牙，似乎在克制着什么，又过片刻，开口，嗓音已经有些沙哑，“那……为什么……喝那么多酒？”
原本轻覆在路影年手背上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手陡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一紧，曹清浅依旧闭着眼，睫毛却拼命颤抖着，咬紧了嘴唇，依旧不说话。
“是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……是不是？”从某些猜测开始之后，只要一想到或许是真<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，心就会剧烈地疼痛起来，没有一刻不在为那些不为人知<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">过往沉痛悔恨，不敢确定那些猜测<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">真实，总觉得太过残忍，可是那些不该被掩埋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">东西，在今日终于就要浮出来，所有压抑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">克制<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">情绪一次性上涌，自重生以来，路影年还是第一次觉得自己是那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">软弱，眼泪几乎就要落下，“根本……根本就不是因为言勒宁，是不是？”
一贯最是了解身后之人，此刻又怎么不知她情绪几乎崩溃，曹清浅睁开眼，路影年看不到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">地方，眼神还带着点哀伤，不过转而便变成了释怀，她将路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手稍稍拉开一些，转过身子，对着那个连嘴唇都在发抖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">人露出个很温暖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不是不让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">喝酒吗？”
情感仿佛就要冲溃河堤奔腾而出，却在这一瞬间凝结，路影年呆怔地看着曹清浅，半天都说不出一句话来。
“好了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">啊，有时候很聪明，有时候怎么就那么笨呢？”拉着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手一同坐到沙发上，路影年想要知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，曹清浅不想告诉她，此刻只是浅浅笑着，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">十二岁那年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">怎么会忽然跑去<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">训练<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">地方找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，还不是担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那个……”
说到这里，脸上笑意更盛，眼神也带上了些许揶揄，“怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又吓哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又不在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">身边，怎么办？”
瞪大眼，脸颊瞬间红成了一片，自头顶到脖颈滚烫滚烫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，片刻之后才反应过来自己这是被调戏了，路影年挑了挑眉，眼里一抹羞恼一闪而过，直接将曹清浅抱进怀里，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">才没有被吓哭。”
“呵……是吗，某个孩子当真十二岁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候，真没有被吓哭？”连着几日来被这个家伙欺负，曹清浅心里其实还是有些憋屈<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，原本只是想转移了路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">注意不让她去纠结那些事情，却在看到她那别扭<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情之后有了种恶作剧得逞<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感觉，抬手轻捏着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，“小笨蛋。”
脸颊被那两只柔嫩光滑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手捏着，对视<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候能看清她眼底<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">星星点点笑意，原本几乎就要恼羞成怒来个强吻让她知道什么叫作“强攻不可调戏”，这一刻却蓦地心底化作了棉花般柔软一片，路影年同她靠近了些，鼻尖轻触她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">鼻尖，“所以，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">第一次那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">日期，都记得一清二楚，是吗？”
“是啊……”又是一声轻笑，曹清浅揉了揉她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，看着她那乖乖看着自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">模样，嘴角勾着温暖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">弧度，主动地吻了吻她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">唇，“那个时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可没想到那个小小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">小屁孩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">身体里，藏着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是这么不老实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">灵魂……虽然那么多事情和从前截然不同，可是……”
轻揉她脸颊<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">动作停住了，不愿意说出某些事实让路影年伤心，却想知道另一些自己曾经一直不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情，曹清浅沉默了片刻，缓缓开口继续道，“年年，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是怎么……到这里来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">？”
脸上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情微停几秒，路影年凝视着她，随即也露出了同几分钟之前她脸上如出一辙<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，“开车过来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">呀，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不是坐在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">旁边看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">吗？”
咬唇，对这个眼里还跳动着调皮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">家伙一点办法都没有，曹清浅靠上前好像亲吻一般地轻咬了下她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是在报复<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">之前转移话题？”
路影年笑笑，看着这一刻身上又泛起了小女人气质<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">曹清浅，心里无比地喜欢这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感觉，声音依旧柔和，“清浅，即使<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不说，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">也能猜到那些东西……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">只想，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们能够坦诚所有，那些都已经过去了……不，应该说，在这个世界上，那些并不存在，存在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们相爱了，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们还有着很长很长<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">未来。弄清楚那些，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">确定那些，只是、<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">只是想，以后更爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，更疼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，更珍惜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">明白吗？”
安静地听着路影年说着这么一段长长<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又扣人心扉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">话语，看着那张自己所熟悉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸庞上闪烁着对未来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">憧憬和对自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">满满情意，曹清浅伸手在她脸上轻抚了片刻，轻轻地叹了口气，“是……年年，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">问题。”
“在感情上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一直太过软弱，从前，总觉得爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是一件充满罪恶感<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情……直到前段时间，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">都是这么想<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">渴望看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，渴望抱住<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">亲吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，渴望和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">做一些不该做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不敢，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">小姨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">找不到办法宣泄那些感情，那些欲望。只有酒醉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候、只有那时候，不需要心存罪恶，不需要愧疚，不需要觉得自己思想肮脏，在梦中<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以尽情地沉沦，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以……拥有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。”
曾经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切恍然如梦，本以为已不在意，如今再说起来，才发现心底隐隐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">还是有些疼痛，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">眼里很快便泛起了一抹泪光，路影年看在眼里，听着她说着那些自己一点都不知晓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">情感，咬紧了牙关，感同身受，眼眸也跟着湿润了。
“可是再怎么酗酒，白天还是要面对现实，越是看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，越是欢喜，也越是痛苦……”身子开始颤抖，泪水顺着眼角滑落，曹清浅轻摇了摇头，用力呼出一口气来，“所以……对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">来说，死才是解脱，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">多么害怕哪一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">控制不住，污染了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……”
“污染……”痴痴地重复了一遍这两个字，心疼得近乎麻木，除了紧搂着她，一遍遍地在她脸侧亲吻，路影年找不到任何其他方式来表达这一刻自己所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">后悔和心痛，“是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">污染了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">才对，清浅、清浅……每一次叫出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">名字，又害怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">发现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感情不再理<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，一次一次转而念那句诗，疏影横斜……水清浅，在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">心里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一直是如同女神一样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">存在，怎么能亵渎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……怎么可以……可是那么没出息<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，做了那么多错事，一定让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">更痛苦，一定让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……”
泣不成声，即使曾经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切终于被重生后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切所弥补，那些伤痛却不是那么轻易可以掩埋。
“不哭不哭……”眼里还含着泪，心里也难过得紧，这一刻却又勾起嘴角露出个温柔得迷人眼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，如同小时候哄着摔倒<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">孩子一般，手在路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">后背上轻轻拍着，曹清浅抬头吻了吻她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，然后趴在她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩上，贴着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">耳朵，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">也说那些其实是不存在于这个世界<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">呀，都是大人了，怎么还像以前那样哭鼻子呢？”
吸吸鼻子，眼睛红红<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，表情有些呆呆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，又有些倔强，路影年抬手用手背用力擦了下脸上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">泪水，曹清浅却被她这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">动作逗得笑意更浓了，手在她脸上温柔地擦着，“就当做那些都是噩梦，哭过了，就不要在意了，好不好？”
又吸了吸鼻子，一直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表现都很成熟，这一刻却终于有了面对小姨时才会露出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">孩子气神情，路影年将脸埋到曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩窝处，声音闷闷<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，“嗯。”
然而心中，居然不安了起来，脑子里不知为何，一闪而过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是被封锁在记忆中不愿想起<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">签文。
此情已自成追忆，零落鸳鸯，雨歇微凉，十一年前梦一场。
作者有话要说：到这一章，大家一直猜测争论的谜底揭晓。
确实是双重生没错，没写这篇文之前，就是想好了双重生的……即使早就设定了这样的剧情，可是写这章的事情，居然不知道该怎么让两人说清楚了，希望没被我写崩掉，越是希望写好，越是写得不好。
如果我燃尽生命里最凄美的悲喜，
能不能篡改生命里终留白的结局。
如果我走尽这世界上最遥远的距离，
能否与世界上最遥远的你，
再一次相遇。
写这章的时候一直在单曲循环《世界上最遥远的你》，这段歌词，可以当做重生之前小年和小姨临死前的心理写照吧。
……咦这么文艺的家伙真的是小我吗？
“其实有很多次……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">都能知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。”收了笑容,表情平静，同路影年对视着,手覆上她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸庞,指尖一点点地在上头触摸着，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">嗓音很轻很轻，轻得让路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那双黑亮眸子萌上了一层迷离。
夏日<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">午后,阳光灿烂得灼热,一滴汗顺着额角缓缓滑下，路影年没有任何反应，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">指尖往上移了些许，抚去那滴汗，见她还是那有些呆呆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">神情，轻声一叹，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们进去吧，外头好热。”
“嗯。”回过神来，路影年点了点头，伸手握住那在自己脸上轻抚<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手，牵着她一同进了别墅。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">以为这里会布满灰尘。”踏进那扇木门，打量着四周，所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切都和自己离开前一模一样，连自己走之前在客厅放着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">杯子都还在那里，曹清浅睫毛轻轻颤着，握紧了路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手，“现在想来……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那么执着，连花都种了，又怎么会让这里蒙上尘埃。”
手一扯将她拉到怀里，路影年自后搂着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">腰，下巴靠着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩膀，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">人，一直都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是不是？”
平日里在曹清浅面前总是温柔而笃定，好似无论发生什么她都会保护她，无所畏惧，这一刻，明明搂着她，路影年却发现自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">整颗心都在颤抖，连手也跟着发抖起来，即使已经知晓答案，却又在这将要听到曹清浅亲口所说之前，有了一丝恐惧。
垂着眼帘，背对着路影年，看不到她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情，却能看到那搂着自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">腰<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手连手指都在轻微抖着，周遭安静极了，静得连身后之人<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">心跳声都能听得一清二楚，曹清浅放软了身子，倚在路影年怀里，仿佛就这么将自己交给她一般<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，闭上了眼，不说话。
呼吸逐渐急促，紧紧搂着她，眼睛直视前方，眼眶却隐隐已经有些发红，路影年咬着牙，似乎在克制着什么，又过片刻，开口，嗓音已经有些沙哑，“那……为什么……喝那么多酒？”
原本轻覆在路影年手背上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手陡<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一紧，曹清浅依旧闭着眼，睫毛却拼命颤抖着，咬紧了嘴唇，依旧不说话。
“是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……是不是？”从某些猜测开始之后，只要一想到或许是真<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，心就会剧烈地疼痛起来，没有一刻不在为那些不为人知<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">过往沉痛悔恨，不敢确定那些猜测<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">真实，总觉得太过残忍，可是那些不该被掩埋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">东西，在今日终于就要浮出来，所有压抑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">克制<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">情绪一次性上涌，自重生以来，路影年还是第一次觉得自己是那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">软弱，眼泪几乎就要落下，“根本……根本就不是因为言勒宁，是不是？”
一贯最是了解身后之人，此刻又怎么不知她情绪几乎崩溃，曹清浅睁开眼，路影年看不到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">地方，眼神还带着点哀伤，不过转而便变成了释怀，她将路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手稍稍拉开一些，转过身子，对着那个连嘴唇都在发抖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">人露出个很温暖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不是不让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">喝酒吗？”
情感仿佛就要冲溃河堤奔腾而出，却在这一瞬间凝结，路影年呆怔地看着曹清浅，半天都说不出一句话来。
“好了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">啊，有时候很聪明，有时候怎么就那么笨呢？”拉着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手一同坐到沙发上，路影年想要知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，曹清浅不想告诉她，此刻只是浅浅笑着，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">十二岁那年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">怎么会忽然跑去<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">训练<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">地方找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，还不是担心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">那个……”
说到这里，脸上笑意更盛，眼神也带上了些许揶揄，“怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又吓哭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又不在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">身边，怎么办？”
瞪大眼，脸颊瞬间红成了一片，自头顶到脖颈滚烫滚烫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，片刻之后才反应过来自己这是被调戏了，路影年挑了挑眉，眼里一抹羞恼一闪而过，直接将曹清浅抱进怀里，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">才没有被吓哭。”
“呵……是吗，某个孩子当真十二岁<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候，真没有被吓哭？”连着几日来被这个家伙欺负，曹清浅心里其实还是有些憋屈<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，原本只是想转移了路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">注意不让她去纠结那些事情，却在看到她那别扭<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情之后有了种恶作剧得逞<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感觉，抬手轻捏着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，“小笨蛋。”
脸颊被那两只柔嫩光滑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">手捏着，对视<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候能看清她眼底<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">星星点点笑意，原本几乎就要恼羞成怒来个强吻让她知道什么叫作“强攻不可调戏”，这一刻却蓦地心底化作了棉花般柔软一片，路影年同她靠近了些，鼻尖轻触她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">鼻尖，“所以，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">连<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">第一次那个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">日期，都记得一清二楚，是吗？”
“是啊……”又是一声轻笑，曹清浅揉了揉她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，看着她那乖乖看着自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">模样，嘴角勾着温暖<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">弧度，主动地吻了吻她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">唇，“那个时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可没想到那个小小<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">小屁孩<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">身体里，藏着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是这么不老实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">灵魂……虽然那么多事情和从前截然不同，可是……”
轻揉她脸颊<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">动作停住了，不愿意说出某些事实让路影年伤心，却想知道另一些自己曾经一直不知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情，曹清浅沉默了片刻，缓缓开口继续道，“年年，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是怎么……到这里来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">？”
脸上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表情微停几秒，路影年凝视着她，随即也露出了同几分钟之前她脸上如出一辙<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，“开车过来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">呀，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不是坐在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">旁边看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">吗？”
咬唇，对这个眼里还跳动着调皮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">家伙一点办法都没有，曹清浅靠上前好像亲吻一般地轻咬了下她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是在报复<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">之前转移话题？”
路影年笑笑，看着这一刻身上又泛起了小女人气质<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">曹清浅，心里无比地喜欢这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感觉，声音依旧柔和，“清浅，即使<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不说，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">也能猜到那些东西……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">只想，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们能够坦诚所有，那些都已经过去了……不，应该说，在这个世界上，那些并不存在，存在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们相爱了，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">们还有着很长很长<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">未来。弄清楚那些，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">确定那些，只是、<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">只是想，以后更爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，更疼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，更珍惜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">明白吗？”
安静地听着路影年说着这么一段长长<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">又扣人心扉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">话语，看着那张自己所熟悉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸庞上闪烁着对未来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">憧憬和对自己<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">满满情意，曹清浅伸手在她脸上轻抚了片刻，轻轻地叹了口气，“是……年年，是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">问题。”
“在感情上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一直太过软弱，从前，总觉得爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是一件充满罪恶感<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情……直到前段时间，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">都是这么想<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">渴望看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，渴望抱住<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">亲吻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，渴望和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">做一些不该做<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">事情，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">不敢，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">小姨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">找不到办法宣泄那些感情，那些欲望。只有酒醉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">时候、只有那时候，不需要心存罪恶，不需要愧疚，不需要觉得自己思想肮脏，在梦中<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以尽情地沉沦，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">可以……拥有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">。”
曾经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切恍然如梦，本以为已不在意，如今再说起来，才发现心底隐隐<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">还是有些疼痛，曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">眼里很快便泛起了一抹泪光，路影年看在眼里，听着她说着那些自己一点都不知晓<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">情感，咬紧了牙关，感同身受，眼眸也跟着湿润了。
“可是再怎么酗酒，白天还是要面对现实，越是看到<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，越是欢喜，也越是痛苦……”身子开始颤抖，泪水顺着眼角滑落，曹清浅轻摇了摇头，用力呼出一口气来，“所以……对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">来说，死才是解脱，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">多么害怕哪一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">控制不住，污染了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……”
“污染……”痴痴地重复了一遍这两个字，心疼得近乎麻木，除了紧搂着她，一遍遍地在她脸侧亲吻，路影年找不到任何其他方式来表达这一刻自己所有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">后悔和心痛，“是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">污染了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">才对，清浅、清浅……每一次叫出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">名字，又害怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">发现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">感情不再理<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，一次一次转而念那句诗，疏影横斜……水清浅，在<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">心里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一直是如同女神一样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">存在，怎么能亵渎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……怎么可以……可是那么没出息<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，做了那么多错事，一定让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">更痛苦，一定让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">……”
泣不成声，即使曾经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切终于被重生后<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">一切所弥补，那些伤痛却不是那么轻易可以掩埋。
“不哭不哭……”眼里还含着泪，心里也难过得紧，这一刻却又勾起嘴角露出个温柔得迷人眼<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">笑容，如同小时候哄着摔倒<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">孩子一般，手在路影年<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">后背上轻轻拍着，曹清浅抬头吻了吻她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">脸颊，然后趴在她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩上，贴着她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">耳朵，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">也说那些其实是不存在于这个世界<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">呀，都是大人了，怎么还像以前那样哭鼻子呢？”
吸吸鼻子，眼睛红红<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，表情有些呆呆<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，又有些倔强，路影年抬手用手背用力擦了下脸上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">泪水，曹清浅却被她这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">动作逗得笑意更浓了，手在她脸上温柔地擦着，“就当做那些都是噩梦，哭过了，就不要在意了，好不好？”
又吸了吸鼻子，一直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">表现都很成熟，这一刻却终于有了面对小姨时才会露出<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">孩子气神情，路影年将脸埋到曹清浅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">肩窝处，声音闷闷<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，“嗯。”
然而心中，居然不安了起来，脑子里不知为何，一闪而过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">，是被封锁在记忆中不愿想起<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?55qEm.jjwxc.com515d25cdd3">签文。
此情已自成追忆，零落鸳鸯，雨歇微凉，十一年前梦一场。
作者有话要说：到这一章，大家一直猜测争论的谜底揭晓。
确实是双重生没错，没写这篇文之前，就是想好了双重生的……即使早就设定了这样的剧情，可是写这章的事情，居然不知道该怎么让两人说清楚了，希望没被我写崩掉，越是希望写好，越是写得不好。
如果我燃尽生命里最凄美的悲喜，
能不能篡改生命里终留白的结局。
如果我走尽这世界上最遥远的距离，
能否与世界上最遥远的你，
再一次相遇。
写这章的时候一直在单曲循环《世界上最遥远的你》，这段歌词，可以当做重生之前小年和小姨临死前的心理写照吧。
……咦这么文艺的家伙真的是小我吗？