正文 58左悠、宁潇的番外（二）
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太喜欢社团招新这种活动,是以当整个广场都充斥着学长学姐和新生的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">只迫切地想要离开这个聒噪的地方。
大约是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">走得太急了,不小心碰到了一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，将他手里的传单弄得满地都是。
“不好意思，不好意思。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">蹲下来一张一张地捡起传单，没有过多停留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那上面,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道无非就是宣传社团的罢了。
“同学请顺便看一看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们社团吧。”
那个男生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">接过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">给他的传单的时候又塞给了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一张,因为愧疚，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">收了下来。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">冲他点了点头，然后迅速穿过了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">群,走向了宿舍。
手里握着那张纸不知怎么回事<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">就这样拿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了手上,等回到了宿舍才看了起来。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太明白这是个什么宣传单,只有一个社团名和网址。
名字也很奇怪，叫做homo什么的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打开电脑，输入了上头的地址，跳出来了一个bbs论坛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这才明白，为什么它只有一个网址和名字，甚至连名字都是如此的隐晦。
这是一个同志论坛，而且是高校同志论坛。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很吃惊，甚至当时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">都已经被吓住了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未接触过这些事，只知道英文里有一个词是homosexuality，正好跟社团名合上。
那张纸，并没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的手里停留太久，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">迅速将它扔进了垃圾桶，关掉了网页，不敢相信大学里会有这样一个社团。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">社团招新的这段时间里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">犹豫了很久，但是最后还是加入了他们的qq群。
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<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">刚刚到社团的时候，很不理解为什么大家都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">qq上联系，后来才知道这样一个团体是没有办法公开了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">头一次意识到这群<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是不同于普通的学生的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">开始掩饰自己身处这样一个社团的事实，准确地说，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未对任何<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">提过这件事，包括宁潇。
这是一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心里慢慢滋生的秘密，或许是唯一一件<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">没有跟宁潇分享过的事情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">有一些忐忑，可同时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很高兴能够为学校里困惑的很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">解惑。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">周末最重要的事情就是接受各种各样的同学的电话咨询，他们中的很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">都为自己的性取向苦恼，甚至为此厌恶自己，而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的工作，就是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">电话里安抚他们，并且告诉他们要正视这个问题。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很快就跟社团里的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">熟识了，结交了几个真的同志，他们都是男生，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一个是女生，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这个社团里有一些格格不入。
那个跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一个专业的男孩子杨洋还跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说：“等以后，有需要形婚就叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">吧，好歹咱们同窗这么多年是不是？”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那时候还倔强地跟他说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是异性恋。”
他耸了耸肩，并不跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">争辩，只是眼神出卖了他，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道他根本不信。甚至<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也不信，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那时候……并不知道自己哪里错了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的的确确没有爱上任何一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是一个异性恋。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的自以为是，总是让社团里的男孩子取笑，不过他们总是比普通男孩子敏感，会顾着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的自尊心。
“走啦，上课去。”杨洋搂着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的肩膀，还帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">提着书包，看上去<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们好像真的是情侣。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">并没有拒绝，这样子挺好的，没有男孩子来烦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，规避了不少桃花，加上杨洋长得也不错，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟他凑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起也不算是奇怪。
他老是说：“不好意思，又拿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">当挡箭牌了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">请客。”
可<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道杨洋只是不愿意看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">老是一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">寝室里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">比她们都孤僻，平时也不喜欢什么活动，起初的时候她们还会想到带<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起去，后来见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未答应也就自然而然地抛下了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">行动。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也就成了一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，除了那个社团。
社团渐渐变成了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟一群大老爷们出去玩儿，听他们讲那些相似却又完全不同的同志爱情，仿佛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自己也可以看到那里面的希望跟纯洁。
“老左，来！哥哥给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">介绍一下寝室的帅哥，标准的直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">！”一次喝醉了酒，社长就拉着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">到了一个男生的面前。
他很英俊，像是电视剧里面的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，比<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">高十三厘米，还有高挺的鼻梁和温和的气质。
“不好意思，他喝醉了。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说了一句抱歉，不知道要如何面对这个陌生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
“没有关系，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">送他回寝室，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……还是跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起吧，女生一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太安全。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">没有理由拒绝，便跟着他将社长扶着回了寝室，而后他执意要送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">回宿舍。那段路当真走得很不舒服，他总是会挑起幽默的话头，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们一起走的路不那么单调，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">却没有那份心思应付他。
“对不起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们还是不要再见面了。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">他提出了下一次见面的时间的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这样子说。
后来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不断地对别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说这句话，不断地拒绝那些不惧怕杨洋这个竞争对手的男生。
而到了后来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">连一丝一毫跟他们相处的欲望的都没有。心里，却逐渐被那个叫做宁潇的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">塞满了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">大学的日子里，思念日益滋长，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不知不觉的时候就生了根，再也除不掉了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是什么时候意识到的呢？大概就是大二那一年她的生日吧，二十九岁的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">握着刚刚从银行取出来的奖学金，想要给她买一份礼物。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">去吧，看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">今天这么高兴，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一定不能错过。”杨洋似乎是忽然就出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">身边一样，像往常一样搂着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，去了一家饰品店。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">要送给谁啊？”杨洋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">女生用的饰品店里逛得十分起劲。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">犹豫了一下，说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">姐姐。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">什么时候冒出来了一个姐姐？”杨洋诧异地看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想解释，便说道：“只是没有告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">罢了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不知道该送她什么……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">有什么看法？”
杨洋问：“她多大了？”
“二十九。”
杨洋托着腮：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">还是送香水、化妆品之类的吧。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">摇摇头：“那些东西她太多了，根本不需要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">送。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想要给她能够表现心意的东西。”
“这样啊，那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也不知道了，女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很麻烦的。”杨洋摊手。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">推了一下他的肩膀，对他的见解不屑一顾。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">只是想要给她一点惊喜。正是深秋，那就织围巾吧。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想东西送得太寒酸，便用奖学金买了一条项链，上面有一颗很小的碎钻，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也满意了。
项链和围巾，可以一起送给她。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">织了四条围巾才织好，前面三条都是失败品，针脚不好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">最后全都送给了杨洋，他还很乐呵地围着，说是给了男朋友一条，当做是情侣围巾。
那时候时间很紧，为了能够赶<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">生日的时候让她收到，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">最后一条围巾熬了一个通宵，第二天就邮寄了出去，才能赶上她的生日。
那一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的黑眼圈很重，连上课都没有什么精神。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看她一定是很重要的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">呢，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的黑眼圈都不想一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了。”杨洋说。
杨洋的话让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">身体一震，似乎那种东西便从<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的心里苏醒了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不会……”杨洋捂着嘴，没有将话说完。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">甩甩头，说：“怎么会是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想的那样，那是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">姐姐啊。”
是啊，那是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的姐姐，怎么会？
但是，这种意识一旦苏醒就不会再沉睡下去，那一晚，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">彻夜未眠，即使是熬夜的疲惫也没有办法让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">入睡，翻来覆去脑海里就只有两个字：宁潇。
第二天，宁潇给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打了电话，说她很喜欢礼物。
“喜欢就好。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">焉，听着她的声音仿佛再也不能淡定。
“……那个，项链很贵吧，以后不要花这么多钱了。”宁潇果然还是提了这个。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想回答她，只说：“宁潇，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">喜欢吗？”
宁潇愣了一下，一下子没有反应过来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">对她的称呼，但是她还是说她喜欢。
“那就好了，只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">喜欢就好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">只怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不喜欢。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心里的忐忑放了下去，也暂且掠过了贵不贵这个话题。
之后宁潇跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">聊了很多东西，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太记得内容了，耳朵里就剩下了她的声音而已。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们可不可以视频？”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">忽然想要见到她。
宁潇愣了一下，却也没有拒绝。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打开电脑，然后连上qq跟她视频。当她出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">屏幕上的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自己都没有意识了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很久没有见过她了……
思念疯长，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看着她的脸却没有办法跟她接触，那一刻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">迫切地想要到她身边去。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">克制住了这样的一种疯狂的想法，跟她视频了半小时后便没有办法继续，她的生日她的朋友总是会记得的，一定会帮她庆祝。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">失落地关上了笔记本，找杨洋出来喝酒。
杨洋却说他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起没有时间陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这个姐妹，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">越发的失魂落魄，自己买了一打啤酒到学校附近的公园里去喝。
天色不晚，还有阳光，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">慢慢地喝光了啤酒，却没有办法醉。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">站起来，掏出钱包数了数钱，还剩下不少。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">松了口气，然后打车去了机场，订了机
作者有话要说：未完待续
大约是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">走得太急了,不小心碰到了一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，将他手里的传单弄得满地都是。
“不好意思，不好意思。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">蹲下来一张一张地捡起传单，没有过多停留<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那上面,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道无非就是宣传社团的罢了。
“同学请顺便看一看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们社团吧。”
那个男生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">接过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">给他的传单的时候又塞给了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一张,因为愧疚，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">收了下来。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">冲他点了点头，然后迅速穿过了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">群,走向了宿舍。
手里握着那张纸不知怎么回事<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">就这样拿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了手上,等回到了宿舍才看了起来。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太明白这是个什么宣传单,只有一个社团名和网址。
名字也很奇怪，叫做homo什么的，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打开电脑，输入了上头的地址，跳出来了一个bbs论坛，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这才明白，为什么它只有一个网址和名字，甚至连名字都是如此的隐晦。
这是一个同志论坛，而且是高校同志论坛。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很吃惊，甚至当时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">整个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">都已经被吓住了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未接触过这些事，只知道英文里有一个词是homosexuality，正好跟社团名合上。
那张纸，并没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的手里停留太久，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">迅速将它扔进了垃圾桶，关掉了网页，不敢相信大学里会有这样一个社团。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">社团招新的这段时间里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">犹豫了很久，但是最后还是加入了他们的qq群。
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<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">刚刚到社团的时候，很不理解为什么大家都<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">qq上联系，后来才知道这样一个团体是没有办法公开了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">头一次意识到这群<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是不同于普通的学生的。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">开始掩饰自己身处这样一个社团的事实，准确地说，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未对任何<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">提过这件事，包括宁潇。
这是一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心里慢慢滋生的秘密，或许是唯一一件<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">没有跟宁潇分享过的事情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">有一些忐忑，可同时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很高兴能够为学校里困惑的很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">解惑。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">周末最重要的事情就是接受各种各样的同学的电话咨询，他们中的很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">都为自己的性取向苦恼，甚至为此厌恶自己，而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的工作，就是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">电话里安抚他们，并且告诉他们要正视这个问题。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很快就跟社团里的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">熟识了，结交了几个真的同志，他们都是男生，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一个是女生，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这个社团里有一些格格不入。
那个跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一个专业的男孩子杨洋还跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说：“等以后，有需要形婚就叫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">吧，好歹咱们同窗这么多年是不是？”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那时候还倔强地跟他说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是异性恋。”
他耸了耸肩，并不跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">争辩，只是眼神出卖了他，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道他根本不信。甚至<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也不信，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">那时候……并不知道自己哪里错了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的的确确没有爱上任何一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是一个异性恋。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的自以为是，总是让社团里的男孩子取笑，不过他们总是比普通男孩子敏感，会顾着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的自尊心。
“走啦，上课去。”杨洋搂着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的肩膀，还帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">提着书包，看上去<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们好像真的是情侣。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">并没有拒绝，这样子挺好的，没有男孩子来烦<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，规避了不少桃花，加上杨洋长得也不错，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟他凑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起也不算是奇怪。
他老是说：“不好意思，又拿<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">当挡箭牌了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">请客。”
可<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">知道杨洋只是不愿意看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">老是一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">寝室里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">比她们都孤僻，平时也不喜欢什么活动，起初的时候她们还会想到带<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起去，后来见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">从未答应也就自然而然地抛下了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">行动。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也就成了一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，除了那个社团。
社团渐渐变成了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的家，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟一群大老爷们出去玩儿，听他们讲那些相似却又完全不同的同志爱情，仿佛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自己也可以看到那里面的希望跟纯洁。
“老左，来！哥哥给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">介绍一下寝室的帅哥，标准的直<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">！”一次喝醉了酒，社长就拉着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">到了一个男生的面前。
他很英俊，像是电视剧里面的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，比<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">高十三厘米，还有高挺的鼻梁和温和的气质。
“不好意思，他喝醉了。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说了一句抱歉，不知道要如何面对这个陌生<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
“没有关系，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">送他回寝室，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……还是跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起吧，女生一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太安全。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">没有理由拒绝，便跟着他将社长扶着回了寝室，而后他执意要送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">回宿舍。那段路当真走得很不舒服，他总是会挑起幽默的话头，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们一起走的路不那么单调，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">却没有那份心思应付他。
“对不起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们还是不要再见面了。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">他提出了下一次见面的时间的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这样子说。
后来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不断地对别<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">说这句话，不断地拒绝那些不惧怕杨洋这个竞争对手的男生。
而到了后来，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">连一丝一毫跟他们相处的欲望的都没有。心里，却逐渐被那个叫做宁潇的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">塞满了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">大学的日子里，思念日益滋长，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不知不觉的时候就生了根，再也除不掉了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">是什么时候意识到的呢？大概就是大二那一年她的生日吧，二十九岁的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">握着刚刚从银行取出来的奖学金，想要给她买一份礼物。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">去吧，看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">今天这么高兴，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一定不能错过。”杨洋似乎是忽然就出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">身边一样，像往常一样搂着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">，去了一家饰品店。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">要送给谁啊？”杨洋<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">女生用的饰品店里逛得十分起劲。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">犹豫了一下，说：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">姐姐。”
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">什么时候冒出来了一个姐姐？”杨洋诧异地看着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想解释，便说道：“只是没有告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">罢了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不知道该送她什么……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">有什么看法？”
杨洋问：“她多大了？”
“二十九。”
杨洋托着腮：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">还是送香水、化妆品之类的吧。”
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">摇摇头：“那些东西她太多了，根本不需要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">送。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想要给她能够表现心意的东西。”
“这样啊，那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也不知道了，女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很麻烦的。”杨洋摊手。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">推了一下他的肩膀，对他的见解不屑一顾。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">只是想要给她一点惊喜。正是深秋，那就织围巾吧。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想东西送得太寒酸，便用奖学金买了一条项链，上面有一颗很小的碎钻，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">也满意了。
项链和围巾，可以一起送给她。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">织了四条围巾才织好，前面三条都是失败品，针脚不好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">最后全都送给了杨洋，他还很乐呵地围着，说是给了男朋友一条，当做是情侣围巾。
那时候时间很紧，为了能够赶<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">生日的时候让她收到，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">最后一条围巾熬了一个通宵，第二天就邮寄了出去，才能赶上她的生日。
那一天<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的黑眼圈很重，连上课都没有什么精神。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看她一定是很重要的<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">呢，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的黑眼圈都不想一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">了。”杨洋说。
杨洋的话让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">身体一震，似乎那种东西便从<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的心里苏醒了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不会……”杨洋捂着嘴，没有将话说完。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">甩甩头，说：“怎么会是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">想的那样，那是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">姐姐啊。”
是啊，那是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">的姐姐，怎么会？
但是，这种意识一旦苏醒就不会再沉睡下去，那一晚，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">彻夜未眠，即使是熬夜的疲惫也没有办法让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">入睡，翻来覆去脑海里就只有两个字：宁潇。
第二天，宁潇给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打了电话，说她很喜欢礼物。
“喜欢就好。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心不<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">焉，听着她的声音仿佛再也不能淡定。
“……那个，项链很贵吧，以后不要花这么多钱了。”宁潇果然还是提了这个。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不想回答她，只说：“宁潇，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">喜欢吗？”
宁潇愣了一下，一下子没有反应过来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">对她的称呼，但是她还是说她喜欢。
“那就好了，只要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">喜欢就好，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">只怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不喜欢。”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">心里的忐忑放了下去，也暂且掠过了贵不贵这个话题。
之后宁潇跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">聊了很多东西，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">不太记得内容了，耳朵里就剩下了她的声音而已。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">们可不可以视频？”<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">忽然想要见到她。
宁潇愣了一下，却也没有拒绝。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">打开电脑，然后连上qq跟她视频。当她出现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">屏幕上的时候，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">自己都没有意识了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">很久没有见过她了……
思念疯长，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">看着她的脸却没有办法跟她接触，那一刻<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">迫切地想要到她身边去。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">克制住了这样的一种疯狂的想法，跟她视频了半小时后便没有办法继续，她的生日她的朋友总是会记得的，一定会帮她庆祝。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">失落地关上了笔记本，找杨洋出来喝酒。
杨洋却说他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">跟男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">一起没有时间陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">这个姐妹，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">越发的失魂落魄，自己买了一打啤酒到学校附近的公园里去喝。
天色不晚，还有阳光，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">慢慢地喝光了啤酒，却没有办法醉。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">站起来，掏出钱包数了数钱，还剩下不少。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comcd3db1137a">松了口气，然后打车去了机场，订了机
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