正文 37chapter37
他的语气泛着刻骨的冷意,让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">忍不住颤抖,明明他的话语透露的是种种阴狠。卓谨却只觉得到眼泪像是流不尽一般,一波接着一波,涌出了眼眶，这个男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，一直都是理智而清醒地,如今却为了她，显得如此慌乱，乱到语无伦次,惊慌失措。
他手上裹着的纱布也渐渐蔓延出殷红，看得她触目惊心,“齐慎,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的手……”
“不碍事……”他看了看自己的手指，淡漠而讥讽地笑了，制止住了卓谨正准备靠近的步伐，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还关心吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还会关心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吗”
卓谨哑口无言，她不习惯眼前男子如此的模样。
齐慎看着她泪眼朦胧的样子，只感觉有一种疼痛从左胸口蔓延到指尖，居然禁不住颤抖。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">知道吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">从来没有说过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先别反驳好吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的想法和感受罢了！”她看见齐慎有些激动地站起来，急忙阻止了他想要反驳自己的观点。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">总觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是宠着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">好，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要的怜惜，陪着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">生活，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">从来没说过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">喜欢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，只是没到爱的程度而已。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们这样和各取所需有什么分别呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">家的感觉，能给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">做一顿饭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">晚归的时候点一盏灯，而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">身边，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的心灵有所寄托，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">难过的时候有所依靠。”
她停了下来，用手抹了抹眼角滑下的泪水，才哽咽着继续说着：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">被<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给的温暖所蒙蔽了，居然没有去想过那到底是不是爱情，齐慎，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是想要一个家而已，其实这个家的感觉很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">都可以给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">可以，苏小姐必然也可以。”
“至于现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想找回<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，慎，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想过原因吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想找回<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了，想念<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了？还是因为是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先说的分手，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">心里憋屈，失落，不服气？”
齐慎听到她这样的言辞，有些失望，却也有些心疼，还有些怒气，是他表达不好吗，他从来没有觉得自己只是想要一个家而已，对如今的他而言，有她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的地方才能称为家吧。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">真的觉得仅仅是一句<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就比<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">所有的一切加起来都有说服力吗？”他叹着气问道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">错了，不是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说不说出来的问题，而是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">有没有让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">感受到。”她有些吃惊与自己的思绪竟是如此清晰，仿佛这些疑问和控诉已经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">她脑海里排演过千百次，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，可是其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">自己想起来就会觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">宠着一只小猫小狗一般，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">疼爱它们，给它们温柔，对它们好，这些都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">感情的泛滥，并不是爱情。”
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说分手的时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">为什么没有来找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">呢？如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">刚刚回来的时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么可能不知道呢？如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么可能让苏潋滟对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">换衣服？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">很敏感，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能够猜测到种种原因，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也可以给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">找借口，说路途远，说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">工作忙，说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和苏小姐是兄妹关系，来自<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">安慰，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">累了，不想瞒下去了，也不想装作什么都不知道了。齐慎，好聚好散吧。”
她的语速也越来越缓和，神调也很平稳，连带表情都变得波澜不惊。他看着她决绝的面容，突然有一种感觉，似乎是真真正正地失去她了，他们之间似乎真的要如她所说的两清了，他有些惊慌，如果真的就这样干干净净地断掉了，他会不会从此以后胸口就像有一道伤口一般，风呼啸而过。
一点渣滓都没有了吗？
真的要这样失去了吗？
齐慎的心里很不是滋味，如果卓谨能激动一点点，他都觉得自己还有希望，可是她现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">冷冰冰地看着自己，他只感觉到所有的言语都被封冻，终结。
更何况，她说的都是真的，是他放弃了去寻找她的机会，是他为了自尊没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">第一时间问她原因，也是他忽略了苏潋滟的感情。
是他自己没有好好珍惜有她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的日子，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">来挽留都找不到理由，这个自己朝思暮想的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，竟然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">自己看透彻这段感情之前，就已经懂得了所有，抽身而退，他多么想说出自己这段时日以来的思念和沮丧，可以祈求她的谅解。
可是这个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">似乎并不想给自己任何机会了。
“以前<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没想过的，原来被抛弃这么疼这么疼，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">都不知道自己是该站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">原地还是跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一样仍掉过去往前走…”他看上去似乎很茫然无措，卓谨有些心痛，只觉得手脚都失去了力气，他是何等高傲的男子，却说出了这样卑微的言语。
到底是他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">逼她？
还是她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">逼他？
爱情这个词，让多少<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">念念不忘，撕心裂肺，偏偏又甘之如饴。
他深深地看了她一眼，像是坠入沼泽的旅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一般，对于未知恐惧有着挣扎，却也有着屈服，他的眼里有些放弃的深沉，却也有着垂死挣扎的坚韧，叫她竟不忍心直视。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们真的非到这一步吗？真的没有机会了吗？”
“齐慎，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">如何答复<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">身上背负着另外一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的婚姻，难道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要把自己的快乐建筑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的痛苦之上吗？”她摇了摇头，丝毫没有通融的意思。
这样冷静而决绝的样子，让他连准备好的说辞全数忘却，只想快点离去，这样的难堪，他终时忍受不住。
偏偏还觉得自己罪有应得，还要心疼往日里一脸平静无物的她。
齐慎终于是死心了，站了起来，朝着门外走去，快要走到门口时却说了一句：“对不起，暂时不能还<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">钥匙……”
还没等卓谨反应过来，他便打开了门离去了。
卓谨注视着他离去的背影，声嘶力竭，竟然连哭泣都已经没有了力气，这一段感情，让彼此都累，让彼此都伤。
她缓缓地走到了窗户旁，心里有着太多太多的不舍，却也只能狠心绝情地说着分离的话语，只能眼睁睁地看着他离去，只能视若无睹他惊现的软弱和不舍，哪怕内心千疮百孔，鲜血淋漓。
她盘算着他下楼的时间，悄悄地从窗帘的一角望去，也不知是否真的有心电感应，齐慎拿出车钥匙的时候也抬头看了一眼卓谨家所<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的方向，她惊慌地退后了两步，心中却悲悯无比，暗暗地说着，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，终于就这样散了，如此地，不欢而散。
脑海中忽然想到了早些时候看到的一句话，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">经过那里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">静悄悄的无声无息，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要被他看见，发现，捕捉，追逐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要被他爱上了，然后不爱了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要把自己收好。”
那么现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，她算不算，把自己收好了呢？
如果是，那么胸口的疼痛会不会很快恢复，如果不是，她是不是终其一生都没有办法走出这道魔障，只能反复挣扎，没有出路……
她突然有些后悔，如果早日知道今日的纠缠，她还会不会想得到他的眷恋
内心里一个小小的声音还低语，还是会的吧，她的心里是那么想得到他给的温暖，那份臆想，早已超过了对受伤的恐惧与无奈……
卓谨看着对面坐着的莫唯轩，脑海里有点反应不过来，下班的时候就已经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">学校的侧门口等她了，再加上不知道从哪里冒出来的雨菲，直接生拽硬拖着将自己塞进了莫唯轩的车里，，最让她郁闷的是，当她坐进车以后，莫姑娘就自顾自地离开了……
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没有和他和好吧？”
“恩？”卓谨有些茫然地看着莫唯轩，怎么坐下来第一句就是无厘头的问答啊。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">猜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们没有和好吧，不然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">今天估计也没这么容易约<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">出来了。”对面的男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">笑得一脸无害状。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那叫没这么容易么？那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">容易起来时什么样子啊，自己的手臂还泛着淤青呢，她心里暗暗思忖着，这一对兄妹估计上辈子都是强盗，抢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的水平倒是一流。这两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，一<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">装着OL的职业套装，那裙子下摆那么窄，另一个西装笔挺的，一副正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">君子的样子，怎么都不像是拦路抢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的吧，可是偏偏她还没反应过来，还没弄清楚是怎么回事，就已经被带到了这家咖啡厅里了。
“莫大哥，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说笑了。”心里有着微微的抱怨，面上的表情自然热络不起来。
“小谨，别生气，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也就是想约<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了，实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没办法才出此下策的啊！”
好一个没办法，卓谨看着他明显无辜的表情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想想那只小狐狸雨菲的表情，心下一阵明朗，没关系，总有机会还回来的，比如下周的总结报告……
这厢卓谨心中正暗暗打着小算盘，眼中情不自禁地流露出种种狡黠的意味，莫唯轩却看得有些入迷，不由自主地说出了心里的想法，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要是能一直这么开心就好了。”
却没想到话一说完，卓谨的脸色就变得苍白，搅动咖啡杯的手指也停滞<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了半空中………
“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么了。”莫唯轩忙伸出手探向她的额头。
卓谨只感觉到一股热热的温度靠向了自己，这才反应过来，便忙回答着：“没有，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就是走神了。”
莫唯轩看了看她仍旧苍白的脸色，也就没继续追问下去了，便回到了刚才的话题，“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">别生气，雨菲其实也是为了帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了。”
卓谨笑了笑，点了点头，其实她并不是真的生气了，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没有真的生气，大家都是朋友啊，怎么会为了这些小事过不去啊。”
莫唯轩听到她这样的回答，心里才松了一口气，其实他这么久从妹妹那了解到，这个女孩子外表看起来虽然比较羸弱，但原则性很强，并不是那种随意便可应付的女子。
“其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">本来以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们已经和好了，”他看着卓谨有些疑惑的眼光，便解释到，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">离开的时候正好看见他来，当时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就想如果他说服<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和好了，那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">便认了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">输<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了时间上，说不定只能放弃了，但是若是没有，那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一定会坚持到底的，小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是一个好女孩儿，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不想随随便便就放弃了。”莫唯轩看着她清澈的眼眸，坚定地说着。
“为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">会觉得他会说服<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和他很好呢？”卓谨问出了心中的疑问，刚刚莫唯轩一讲，她就十分好奇了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能看出来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们心中都有对方的吧，既然彼此相爱，那么分手必然是有些认知上面的矛盾吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">当时就觉得，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">为他妥协了，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">才能死心吧。但是照目前的状况来看，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们并没有和好，不是吗，那么是不是证明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还有一线生机？”
莫唯轩语气不慌不急地，仿佛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">陈述一个事实一般，卓谨哑然了，虽然不是认知上的矛盾，但基本也□不离十了，她想了想，其实她并不排斥和莫唯轩做朋友，只是谈其他方面的，就有些言之过早了。
“莫大哥，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">并不是很了解<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">这<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">其实挺不好相处的……”
“没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是一开始就能相处融洽的啊，小谨，不要再拒绝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了好吗，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">机会，即使真的不合适，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也不会死心的。”他打断了卓谨的回答，将自己最真实的想法告诉了她。
卓谨有些赧颜，对面的男子这样一而再，再而三地表述过对自己的感情，她也并不是因为对方条件不如齐慎的原因，只是怕，怕她投入不到那么深，怕自己的内心始终都记挂着另一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，怕最后会伤害眼前这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那么多感情……不能像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">好那样对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，这样对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不公平的。”
“小谨，感情的事情从来没有公平的说法，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">遇见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，喜欢上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，并不能代表<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一定能喜欢上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">机会去尝试，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那么多感情？没有关系，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就行了，至于以后，还漫长不是吗？谁也不能保证<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就一定没有爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的机会，不是吗？”
对面的男子一脸真诚，缓缓地陈述着，卓谨看着他认真的表情，居然找不出任何话语来拒绝，其实她也知道，要遗忘一段感情最好的方法就是开始另一段感情，只是她始终没有办法迈出那一步。
有些懊恼地，她揉了揉自己的太阳穴，也不知道自己到底<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">纠结什么，是潜意识里依然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">等着齐慎，还是想坚守着自己的感情，有些迟疑了，半晌都没有答案。、
莫唯轩看见她焦虑的样子，也有些后悔自己冒进的方式，此刻想起来竟觉得有些逼迫的意味了，忙开了口，“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要为难，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">并不是要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">马上给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">个答案，也没有逼迫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的意思。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是很久没有追过女孩子了，有些找不到方法。”
他摇了摇头，用手摸了摸后脑，又局促地整理了自己的袖口，像个等待检查的小学生一样，卓谨看着他有些迟疑的表情，心中却被他如此执着和认真的态度所感动，正准备开口回答时，手机却响了起来。
卓谨有些不好意思，莫唯轩却笑了笑，做了个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">随意的动作，便悠闲地搅动着杯中的液体，卓谨便没有回避地接起了电话。
却没有想到传来的是曾词的声音，“嫂子，慎哥现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">医院，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要来看看吗？”
卓谨愣住了，本想纠正曾词对自己的称呼，可是听到医院这个词，还是懵了，医院？她和齐慎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一起那么久，齐慎的身体都是很少出问题的，如今又怎么进医院了呢？
也就多长了个心眼，问道：“怎么了？怎么会<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">医院？”
电话里曾词的声音有些模糊，但仍然听得出来其中的焦虑和着急，“哥前几天不要命地喝酒，昨天晚上又借酒疯跑回齐叔叔那，结果两父子不知道因为什么原因吵了起来，齐叔好像用鞭子抽了他，结果打到一半，慎哥就吐血晕了……”
卓谨听到这里已经听不清曾词还说了什么，只觉得脑海里一片空白，那天齐慎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">餐厅里被玻璃扎伤的场景又<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">眼前晃悠着，她始终无法忘记他鲜血淋漓的手掌……而刚刚听到曾词说齐慎吐血晕过去，她的眼前就好像播放电影一样，自动闪现了他嘴角流着鲜血晕过去的场景，竟是差点连手机都拿不稳，她虽然早明白自己又多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">乎他，可是这样明显的生理性反应，却还是让自己无法冷静下来……
只能颤颤巍巍地问清了医院的名称便匆忙挂了电话。
等到挂了电话，看见对面坐着的莫唯轩，只能道歉说：“对不起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">有事，要离开了……很抱歉，有点急……”
莫唯轩看着她苍白的脸色，还有眼中的焦急，再结合刚刚她说道的医院，忙说道：“是要去医院吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先别慌，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吧。”
卓谨看到他认真的样子，点了点头，她现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">若推辞只能显得虚伪了，便放弃了客套随着莫唯轩前往停车场。
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他手上裹着的纱布也渐渐蔓延出殷红，看得她触目惊心,“齐慎,<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的手……”
“不碍事……”他看了看自己的手指，淡漠而讥讽地笑了，制止住了卓谨正准备靠近的步伐，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还关心吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还会关心<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吗”
卓谨哑口无言，她不习惯眼前男子如此的模样。
齐慎看着她泪眼朦胧的样子，只感觉有一种疼痛从左胸口蔓延到指尖，居然禁不住颤抖。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">知道吗？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">从来没有说过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先别反驳好吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">……<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想告诉<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的想法和感受罢了！”她看见齐慎有些激动地站起来，急忙阻止了他想要反驳自己的观点。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">总觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是宠着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">好，给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要的怜惜，陪着<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">生活，但<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">从来没说过<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">知道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">喜欢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，只是没到爱的程度而已。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们这样和各取所需有什么分别呢？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">家的感觉，能给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">做一顿饭，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">晚归的时候点一盏灯，而<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想要一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">陪<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">身边，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的心灵有所寄托，让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">难过的时候有所依靠。”
她停了下来，用手抹了抹眼角滑下的泪水，才哽咽着继续说着：“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">被<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给的温暖所蒙蔽了，居然没有去想过那到底是不是爱情，齐慎，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是想要一个家而已，其实这个家的感觉很多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">都可以给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">可以，苏小姐必然也可以。”
“至于现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想找回<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，慎，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想过原因吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想找回<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，是因为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了，想念<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了？还是因为是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先说的分手，所以<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">心里憋屈，失落，不服气？”
齐慎听到她这样的言辞，有些失望，却也有些心疼，还有些怒气，是他表达不好吗，他从来没有觉得自己只是想要一个家而已，对如今的他而言，有她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的地方才能称为家吧。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">真的觉得仅仅是一句<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就比<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">所有的一切加起来都有说服力吗？”他叹着气问道。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">错了，不是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说不说出来的问题，而是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">有没有让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">感受到。”她有些吃惊与自己的思绪竟是如此清晰，仿佛这些疑问和控诉已经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">她脑海里排演过千百次，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，可是其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">自己想起来就会觉得<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">宠着一只小猫小狗一般，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">疼爱它们，给它们温柔，对它们好，这些都是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">感情的泛滥，并不是爱情。”
“如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说分手的时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">为什么没有来找<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">呢？如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">刚刚回来的时候<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么可能不知道呢？如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">爱<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么可能让苏潋滟对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">换衣服？<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">很敏感，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能够猜测到种种原因，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也可以给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">找借口，说路途远，说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">工作忙，说<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和苏小姐是兄妹关系，来自<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">安慰，可是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">累了，不想瞒下去了，也不想装作什么都不知道了。齐慎，好聚好散吧。”
她的语速也越来越缓和，神调也很平稳，连带表情都变得波澜不惊。他看着她决绝的面容，突然有一种感觉，似乎是真真正正地失去她了，他们之间似乎真的要如她所说的两清了，他有些惊慌，如果真的就这样干干净净地断掉了，他会不会从此以后胸口就像有一道伤口一般，风呼啸而过。
一点渣滓都没有了吗？
真的要这样失去了吗？
齐慎的心里很不是滋味，如果卓谨能激动一点点，他都觉得自己还有希望，可是她现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">冷冰冰地看着自己，他只感觉到所有的言语都被封冻，终结。
更何况，她说的都是真的，是他放弃了去寻找她的机会，是他为了自尊没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">第一时间问她原因，也是他忽略了苏潋滟的感情。
是他自己没有好好珍惜有她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的日子，现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">来挽留都找不到理由，这个自己朝思暮想的女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，竟然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">自己看透彻这段感情之前，就已经懂得了所有，抽身而退，他多么想说出自己这段时日以来的思念和沮丧，可以祈求她的谅解。
可是这个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">似乎并不想给自己任何机会了。
“以前<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没想过的，原来被抛弃这么疼这么疼，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">都不知道自己是该站<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">原地还是跟<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一样仍掉过去往前走…”他看上去似乎很茫然无措，卓谨有些心痛，只觉得手脚都失去了力气，他是何等高傲的男子，却说出了这样卑微的言语。
到底是他<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">逼她？
还是她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">逼他？
爱情这个词，让多少<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">念念不忘，撕心裂肺，偏偏又甘之如饴。
他深深地看了她一眼，像是坠入沼泽的旅<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一般，对于未知恐惧有着挣扎，却也有着屈服，他的眼里有些放弃的深沉，却也有着垂死挣扎的坚韧，叫她竟不忍心直视。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们真的非到这一步吗？真的没有机会了吗？”
“齐慎，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">让<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">如何答复<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">身上背负着另外一个女<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的婚姻，难道<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要把自己的快乐建筑<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">她<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的痛苦之上吗？”她摇了摇头，丝毫没有通融的意思。
这样冷静而决绝的样子，让他连准备好的说辞全数忘却，只想快点离去，这样的难堪，他终时忍受不住。
偏偏还觉得自己罪有应得，还要心疼往日里一脸平静无物的她。
齐慎终于是死心了，站了起来，朝着门外走去，快要走到门口时却说了一句：“对不起，暂时不能还<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">钥匙……”
还没等卓谨反应过来，他便打开了门离去了。
卓谨注视着他离去的背影，声嘶力竭，竟然连哭泣都已经没有了力气，这一段感情，让彼此都累，让彼此都伤。
她缓缓地走到了窗户旁，心里有着太多太多的不舍，却也只能狠心绝情地说着分离的话语，只能眼睁睁地看着他离去，只能视若无睹他惊现的软弱和不舍，哪怕内心千疮百孔，鲜血淋漓。
她盘算着他下楼的时间，悄悄地从窗帘的一角望去，也不知是否真的有心电感应，齐慎拿出车钥匙的时候也抬头看了一眼卓谨家所<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的方向，她惊慌地退后了两步，心中却悲悯无比，暗暗地说着，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，终于就这样散了，如此地，不欢而散。
脑海中忽然想到了早些时候看到的一句话，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">经过那里，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">静悄悄的无声无息，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要被他看见，发现，捕捉，追逐，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要被他爱上了，然后不爱了，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要把自己收好。”
那么现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，她算不算，把自己收好了呢？
如果是，那么胸口的疼痛会不会很快恢复，如果不是，她是不是终其一生都没有办法走出这道魔障，只能反复挣扎，没有出路……
她突然有些后悔，如果早日知道今日的纠缠，她还会不会想得到他的眷恋
内心里一个小小的声音还低语，还是会的吧，她的心里是那么想得到他给的温暖，那份臆想，早已超过了对受伤的恐惧与无奈……
卓谨看着对面坐着的莫唯轩，脑海里有点反应不过来，下班的时候就已经<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">学校的侧门口等她了，再加上不知道从哪里冒出来的雨菲，直接生拽硬拖着将自己塞进了莫唯轩的车里，，最让她郁闷的是，当她坐进车以后，莫姑娘就自顾自地离开了……
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没有和他和好吧？”
“恩？”卓谨有些茫然地看着莫唯轩，怎么坐下来第一句就是无厘头的问答啊。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">猜<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们没有和好吧，不然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">今天估计也没这么容易约<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">出来了。”对面的男<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">笑得一脸无害状。
<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那叫没这么容易么？那<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">容易起来时什么样子啊，自己的手臂还泛着淤青呢，她心里暗暗思忖着，这一对兄妹估计上辈子都是强盗，抢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的水平倒是一流。这两<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，一<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">装着OL的职业套装，那裙子下摆那么窄，另一个西装笔挺的，一副正<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">君子的样子，怎么都不像是拦路抢<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的吧，可是偏偏她还没反应过来，还没弄清楚是怎么回事，就已经被带到了这家咖啡厅里了。
“莫大哥，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">说笑了。”心里有着微微的抱怨，面上的表情自然热络不起来。
“小谨，别生气，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也就是想约<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了，实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没办法才出此下策的啊！”
好一个没办法，卓谨看着他明显无辜的表情，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">想想那只小狐狸雨菲的表情，心下一阵明朗，没关系，总有机会还回来的，比如下周的总结报告……
这厢卓谨心中正暗暗打着小算盘，眼中情不自禁地流露出种种狡黠的意味，莫唯轩却看得有些入迷，不由自主地说出了心里的想法，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要是能一直这么开心就好了。”
却没想到话一说完，卓谨的脸色就变得苍白，搅动咖啡杯的手指也停滞<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了半空中………
“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怎么了。”莫唯轩忙伸出手探向她的额头。
卓谨只感觉到一股热热的温度靠向了自己，这才反应过来，便忙回答着：“没有，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就是走神了。”
莫唯轩看了看她仍旧苍白的脸色，也就没继续追问下去了，便回到了刚才的话题，“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">别生气，雨菲其实也是为了帮<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了。”
卓谨笑了笑，点了点头，其实她并不是真的生气了，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">没有真的生气，大家都是朋友啊，怎么会为了这些小事过不去啊。”
莫唯轩听到她这样的回答，心里才松了一口气，其实他这么久从妹妹那了解到，这个女孩子外表看起来虽然比较羸弱，但原则性很强，并不是那种随意便可应付的女子。
“其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">本来以为<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们已经和好了，”他看着卓谨有些疑惑的眼光，便解释到，“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">离开的时候正好看见他来，当时<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就想如果他说服<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和好了，那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">便认了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">输<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了时间上，说不定只能放弃了，但是若是没有，那么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一定会坚持到底的，小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是一个好女孩儿，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不想随随便便就放弃了。”莫唯轩看着她清澈的眼眸，坚定地说着。
“为什么<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">会觉得他会说服<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">和他很好呢？”卓谨问出了心中的疑问，刚刚莫唯轩一讲，她就十分好奇了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能看出来<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们心中都有对方的吧，既然彼此相爱，那么分手必然是有些认知上面的矛盾吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">当时就觉得，只有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">为他妥协了，这样<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">才能死心吧。但是照目前的状况来看，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">们并没有和好，不是吗，那么是不是证明<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">还有一线生机？”
莫唯轩语气不慌不急地，仿佛<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">陈述一个事实一般，卓谨哑然了，虽然不是认知上的矛盾，但基本也□不离十了，她想了想，其实她并不排斥和莫唯轩做朋友，只是谈其他方面的，就有些言之过早了。
“莫大哥，其实<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">并不是很了解<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吧，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">这<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">其实挺不好相处的……”
“没有<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">是一开始就能相处融洽的啊，小谨，不要再拒绝<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">了好吗，如果<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">机会，即使真的不合适，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">也不会死心的。”他打断了卓谨的回答，将自己最真实的想法告诉了她。
卓谨有些赧颜，对面的男子这样一而再，再而三地表述过对自己的感情，她也并不是因为对方条件不如齐慎的原因，只是怕，怕她投入不到那么深，怕自己的内心始终都记挂着另一个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，怕最后会伤害眼前这个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Lq6m.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">罢了。
“<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">怕<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那么多感情……不能像<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">好那样对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，这样对<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不公平的。”
“小谨，感情的事情从来没有公平的说法，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">遇见<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，喜欢上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，并不能代表<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一定能喜欢上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">，但是<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">希望<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">机会去尝试，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">给不了<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">那么多感情？没有关系，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">能给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就行了，至于以后，还漫长不是吗？谁也不能保证<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">就一定没有爱上<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的机会，不是吗？”
对面的男子一脸真诚，缓缓地陈述着，卓谨看着他认真的表情，居然找不出任何话语来拒绝，其实她也知道，要遗忘一段感情最好的方法就是开始另一段感情，只是她始终没有办法迈出那一步。
有些懊恼地，她揉了揉自己的太阳穴，也不知道自己到底<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">纠结什么，是潜意识里依然<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">等着齐慎，还是想坚守着自己的感情，有些迟疑了，半晌都没有答案。、
莫唯轩看见她焦虑的样子，也有些后悔自己冒进的方式，此刻想起来竟觉得有些逼迫的意味了，忙开了口，“小谨，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">不要为难，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">并不是要<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">马上给<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">个答案，也没有逼迫<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">的意思。<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">只是很久没有追过女孩子了，有些找不到方法。”
他摇了摇头，用手摸了摸后脑，又局促地整理了自己的袖口，像个等待检查的小学生一样，卓谨看着他有些迟疑的表情，心中却被他如此执着和认真的态度所感动，正准备开口回答时，手机却响了起来。
卓谨有些不好意思，莫唯轩却笑了笑，做了个<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">随意的动作，便悠闲地搅动着杯中的液体，卓谨便没有回避地接起了电话。
却没有想到传来的是曾词的声音，“嫂子，慎哥现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532"><img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">医院，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">要来看看吗？”
卓谨愣住了，本想纠正曾词对自己的称呼，可是听到医院这个词，还是懵了，医院？她和齐慎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">一起那么久，齐慎的身体都是很少出问题的，如今又怎么进医院了呢？
也就多长了个心眼，问道：“怎么了？怎么会<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">医院？”
电话里曾词的声音有些模糊，但仍然听得出来其中的焦虑和着急，“哥前几天不要命地喝酒，昨天晚上又借酒疯跑回齐叔叔那，结果两父子不知道因为什么原因吵了起来，齐叔好像用鞭子抽了他，结果打到一半，慎哥就吐血晕了……”
卓谨听到这里已经听不清曾词还说了什么，只觉得脑海里一片空白，那天齐慎<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">餐厅里被玻璃扎伤的场景又<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">眼前晃悠着，她始终无法忘记他鲜血淋漓的手掌……而刚刚听到曾词说齐慎吐血晕过去，她的眼前就好像播放电影一样，自动闪现了他嘴角流着鲜血晕过去的场景，竟是差点连手机都拿不稳，她虽然早明白自己又多<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">乎他，可是这样明显的生理性反应，却还是让自己无法冷静下来……
只能颤颤巍巍地问清了医院的名称便匆忙挂了电话。
等到挂了电话，看见对面坐着的莫唯轩，只能道歉说：“对不起，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">有事，要离开了……很抱歉，有点急……”
莫唯轩看着她苍白的脸色，还有眼中的焦急，再结合刚刚她说道的医院，忙说道：“是要去医院吗，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">先别慌，<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5oiRm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">送<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5L2gm.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">吧。”
卓谨看到他认真的样子，点了点头，她现<img align="bottom" style="margin-bottom:-2px;vertical-align:top;" src="/book2/showimg?5Zyom.jjwxc.comed3fae1532">若推辞只能显得虚伪了，便放弃了客套随着莫唯轩前往停车场。
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